Wednesday, October 30, 2013
I was sitting down, ready to write a personal statement about myself. Before I sat here, I had ideas on what to write, and it went well. But as soon as I started typing, my mind just suddenly shuts off. I think thats my biggest problem. I have all these ideas, but I am unable to produce them in good writing. As I'm sitting here, typing all this down I feel a block just there in my mind. I know why I'm typing this, I know how I want it to end, but the problem is the in-between. This always happens and I dont know how to unblock it. So now I'm just stuck here, typing whatever bull*. I'm really pissed at myself.. It's one of the easiest things to do.. naturally, but something up in my head is just stopping me. And I dont know what it is.
I guess one of the main reasons is, I dont know how to describe myself. I hate describing myself. I just find it unnatural. What's natural about telling the world what are your greatest attribute?How would you know if its true. I believe that doing all that, is just.. bias. Why would you believe what others say about themselves.
I just lost interest in writing this.. I need to focus on my statement.. ciao.
I miss my boo.
Friday, October 25, 2013
My boo went off to Shanghai.. =( the joke was that he got sent back to his home country..--, but it was just a joke.. cause..hehehehe..
well my point is.. I miss him to bits. To the point of sleeping my whole day today.. -.-
But its the truth.. cause everytime i'd wake up and see if he had already texted me or not..=(
Well at least its just 3 weeks.. and we can talk.. I hope 3 weeks wont feel like forever..:( i really dont!
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Sunday, August 18, 2013
I do not live up to the expectations I had when I was a child.
I have failed myself.
Worst; I let you get the best of me.
Problem is, I want you to get the best of me. I just don't feel you care that you do.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
My world doesnt seem to spin when he's not around. :)
Friday, May 24, 2013
At this point on.. I hate what I do. Every time the word 'work' itself comes up rage just fills up and my head starts spinning. It feels like things are closing in, and I hate it. I hate it when I close my eyes, and things just pass by my thoughts and I just cant stand it. I hate how I'm supposed to know what to do, when I dont understand jack what's going on. And I have to deal with phone calls and people coming in and out with questions I dont have the answer to. For once I guess I'm in this shit situation where I feel all these worries. I hate it. It affects my mood. I feel unhappy. Dad's been telling me, and also one of the bosses that you start from scratch. But this is not just scratch, this is.. ruins, burnt and trampled upon, blown by the wind and toxic. Well that's abit of an exaggeration. I had a perfect sentence earlier, but I was more focused on my thirst than actually sitting here talking about this, and feeling all anxious all over. Maybe I should just stop. I think I just needed to put something for me to read back one day and maybe think that this is better than what i'll be doing then. Maybe. Or maybe if people are looking for clues or whatever, they'll find it here and be able to fit in the puzzles. Like an evidence thing. *uber sigh*
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Today was a shock to me. A morning call that bothered my whole day. Work piling up.. and the fact that I'm uber tired. And.. rindu.
Just thought Id update. Cause I feel like.. this had been such a hectic day. OMG!