In this second series:

"She stormed out of the meeting room"

I came to the office and walked to her room. As always she was seated right in front of her desktop just staring at the monitor, I walked in greeted her a good morning and went straight to the matter at hand.

She was looking me for that morning, and after my quick conversation with her on what the direction for the organisation is, it was another heavy *day for me and I was still at home trying to push myself to get to the office ASAP. I guess that short-circuited a fuse in her head, and got her to push my button or perhaps it was just another 'low-blow' from her but, looking back now, I guess that was push that I needed.

So I was seated in her room, she was facing me this time and it seemed like she was open to discuss. I opened my mouth and listed down my grievances. I had her attention and she seemed to be nodding with empathy. I was done, it was her turn. She began by highlighting the importance of punctuality. Okay, that was understood, I was wrong for being late, I acknowledged her point and apologised. I guess I was trying to steer back to my points so I asked her "what about work delivery?".

She opened her mouth to agree but, went on with her speech on punctuality. It felt like I was slapped in the face with... reality and I could hear the sound of 'trust' shattering. I gave her a chance to change my mind about her and there she was proving me right. She is manipulative, delusional and outright USELESS to the organisation. She did not address any of my points and there she was claiming that she cares about the people under her. To that date, there was nothing that she has done that showed she cared. She was quick to punish, but not to reward.

I decided to publish the previous post cause something just came up. It's not finished but I figured I'd be throwing out alot of dirty dishes anyways. 

So in this first series:

So they finally pulled this card on me, it was just a matter of time.

I understand the above looks bad, but hear me out, I work for an organisation where even the management has no idea what their doing moreover care with what's gonna happen to it. 

It happens in all organisation you say?Well guess what, we only have about 3 years to revive it and we're coming on to our second year without any progress. 

Don't be that way you say?Give her a chance they might turn things around? Well could they? When I went to find answers, to my dismay, instead of having a conversation about where the organisation is heading or its plans or its purpose even, I only got a one-liner. Based on what I know now, that one-liner wasn't even the right answer. 

So how do you keep your hopes up in that situation. How do you keep on going when you don't even know why you're doing what you're doing knowing that next year you'll still end up in the pool of unemployed.

Love for the organisation that has built you up? Not all is fair in the game of love! When I first joined in under their wing, I felt like a total alien! Why? Cause I spawned from 'evil' so I was treated the same.

Those who remain in the organisation had hopes of turning the organisation back to a bustling business like it used to be. Every one was excited and were sharing ideas, imagining possibilities, people were driven. 

Six months in, silence. One year in, whispers of other organisations taking on projects which were ours. Though bruised, we still hoped.

It was about a year plus in, when they suddenly decided that attendance and punctuality should be main priority for all employees of this organisation that is dying. Along with people's morale, health and sanity.

They don't plan on making any changes in this very crucial time. I don't even know how I get myself to set foot at such a place every morning. It just reeks of negativity, at this very crucial time when people need hope, they just find ways to step all over it.