That was enough.. =]
 Perhaps to last me for a few days.
 

I have to be strong.

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I never said I was ever fine without you, but he wants to make me happy, and I think I deserve to be happy. Dont you?
I know, you no longer want to be the person that would make me happy, so please do this one last thing for me, let me be happy.
I did one last thing for you, letting you go.

Its not easy, but what's the point of standing alone for a relationship?You wont stay to listen, you wont stay to work our way around it. Why should I?Were you just gonna let me stand there alone for the rest of my life, just watching you go by?

And I thought you knew, I tried to be different for you. And I thought you knew how deep in love I was with you. But you didnt. So what's the point?

I have alot more to say. But what's the point?
Youve said it yourself. Youve put an end to it. Youve asked me to let you go. Youve said hurtful things to me. Whatelse do you wish to do?That has anything to do with me?

If there is nothing more, then just let me be happy.

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"As the uneasy feeling went on, the gaps of the door, became material, of what seemed to be a scarf. The fire flickering struggling to beat the wind, switching between colours and shape. The fire eventually found its way and smoke began to rise.

The day darkens as the minutes go by. Ashes falling and thoughts began to escape, running around the room. It was like unleashing the demons. As the smoke sinks in the insides, the uneasy feeling lifted for a little bit. One of the demons was the uneasy feeling. It ran the fastest. It was one of the most intolerable. It was one of the lost ones. No known reason for its behaviour.

Perhaps it wasnt just the smoke, perhaps it was also something else, that demon slowed down. It became weak. It no longer took form of a demon, it changed, it became a weary lost soul."


I took what was supposed to be a half an hour nap, but I guess the non-existence of energy drinks turned it to a few hours nap.
For some reason, I just wanted to go on with my sleep. But the thought of a messed up sleeping pattern gave me the urge to eventually lift the blankets of my body. And of course, the thought of my future plans. I wish to not mess that up.
I felt heat prickling at the back of my body, but the aircond was on 16degrees. I felt like ive lost my motivation to go through with my plans. I thought of the idea I had for today, and it didnt feel like I want to go on with it. I am behind on my scheduele.

And for some reason, I ended up in the kitchen, looking for food. I failed. I called the parents, but they were out somewhere, and they didnt want to get me food. So I ended up vacuuming my room. It doesnt look any different, just no more lizard shit. I hate lizards. Theyre icky and they leave a mess. But my room has a weird tendency to breed huge ass, icky lizards. I dont understand.

For some reason, at the back of my head, I think the nagging this morning, made me lose my motivation to study. I hate 'advises' it makes me seem like I dont have a brain. I am not saying I wont listen, or I wont ask. If i'm not asking for it, I already know, Ive thought of it, I have a plan. Its like.. riding a bike on a hilly slope, and the 'advice' is like the one that pushes you back down.

Im tired of blogging. It doesnt really help. -_- Ive wasted time, and Im getting sleepy again. And my train of thoughts no longer falls down to my fingers anymore. Cause it has subtly taken up my brain in every minute of every hour. And it has become very comfortable there.
I really want to study, but every part of me is shutting down.

sigh. I need food. Im hungry.



"While you're ignoring her, another guy is giving her attention & while you're giving her problems, another guy is listening."
I saw this on twitter.

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Ive held my head up high.
I may still be unable to stand up straight just yet. I cant walk right just yet, I cant run just yet.
But I cant let myself fall back on my knees.

Cause I still believe in fairy tales, and in fairy tales, when a person is on their knees, its with a smile and it continues with a happy ending.

Things I could do (at the moment);
a) put my chin up.
b) keep my head up high.
c) pretend as if the pain isnt there.

Birthday gift list:

http://www.guess.eu/Guess/EN/Woman/Watches/93?page=0
Any of these will do. Or any Guess watches.

Money would do.

Oakley

Wii console

Handbag.

PIANO - an actual one.

Horse.

Intelligence.

will be updated soon.

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