There are times when u wish time wouldnt go by so fast..There i was sitting infront of the laptop..Mom's yelling out to dad 'milo?' and dad saying back 'buatkan'..And their conversation goes on..
Moments later sister yelling out..My niece got the hang of walking..Then they all settle down talking about why the rumour tsunami in ttg appeared.Its just like watching my life when i was a little kid..Two sisters playing with me,while parents watching over.I had a great childhood..Until the point where i started to change becoming more of a rebel than this sweet little kid..I miss my childhood..I admit it was kinda boring,growing up amongst 3 teenage sister..Things that interest us was different..I wanted to watch cartoons and they wanted to watch MTV..At times i maybe dancing along..=)
i miss what ive left,but what is there to do..=p

Love?Could it be defined or is it one of those things you could just never get?Yeah..i know its a crappy start but im getting to the part i pour my heart out..
Somewhere this year~ i've made a conclusion,its not love when it hurts..But then again..Could it be a greater love when it hurts?To sacrifice for the one we love just to see them happy?or could it just be,ones love has faded away and left pain on the other..Could that be love when we're just loving and not loved?Yeah its love but..an unfair one?Is love unfair in the beginning?No right?so it couldnt be love..Have you ever sat there and thought about this?i have millions of time..I'd daze of and think..'am i doing the right thing here?Could i really trust him?"
There are times i sit there and thought "owh how lucky am i..he really loves me ..i was stupid to not believe him.." i'd go all fluterry and wished he was there with me..*yes its soppy..but im pouring out myheart here*
There would also be times where i sit there and think "what he's done..could it just be a way to get what he wants?To fulfill his promise?i know him..he's not the kind to get out of his responsibilty.." or could i be wrong?I have doubts with this relationship and these kind of times are the times i'd wish he was never around..
There would also be times i receive news like "awu,sama lima bini2 lagi ya" and i still manage to smile..Cause deep down i could accept that fact..
Could that be love?Is it normal for love to this to us human?Sighs..
Feeling too depressed to think of more..i'll go on,on some other time..
XoXo

Love?Could it be defined or is it one of those things you could just never get?Yeah..i know its a crappy start but im getting to the part i pour my heart out..

Somewhere this year~ i've made a conclusion,its not love when it hurts..But then again..Could it be a greater love when it hurts?To sacrifice for the one we love just to see them happy?or could it just be,ones love has faded away and left pain on the other..Could that be love when we're just loving and not loved?Yeah its love but..an unfair one?Is love unfair in the beginning?No right?so it couldnt be love..Have you ever sat there and thought about this?i have millions of time..I'd daze of and think..'am i doing the right thing here?Could i really trust him?"

There are times i sit there and thought "owh how lucky am i..he really loves me ..i was stupid to not believe him.." i'd go all fluterry and wished he was there with me..*yes its soppy..but im pouring out myheart here*

There would also be times where i sit there and think "what he's done..could it just be a way to get what he wants?To fulfill his promise?i know him..he's not the kind to get out of his responsibilty.." or could i be wrong?I have doubts with this relationship and these kind of times are the times i'd wish he was never around..

There would also be times i receive news like "awu,sama lima bini2 lagi ya" and i still manage to smile..Cause deep down i could accept that fact..
Could that be love?Is it normal for love to this to us human?Sighs..
Feeling too depressed to think of more..i'll go on,on some other time..
XoXo

Merry Christmas~ ahh..i miss him~ hee..alot happened lately..I went to KK..Had a great time..Though something came up to spoiled the moment i still had a great time..KK was great,the shopping was great~ alot more shops to shop from..LoL..Watched a "rehearsal" on my last day there..How i wished it wasnt my last day..That guy caught my eye..Not my heart but my eye..hee..He was the reason i wasnt very much broken when i got back home~ Sighss..had problem with the Mr~ texted me about a mistake i regret ever doing..
Stupid ex was scared like hell..damn~ felt like knocking his head along with that assh*le's head..Thanks for getting into my lfe biyatch~ i wont go "gaga" over you anytime soon..Haha..It was my mistake yes~ i admit~but why must that idiot tell him on that very date?Couldnt he just tell it a little bit earlier..ughh..enough of that..

Had been going out alot lately..Not that much but yeah..been able to keep boredom out of the way for awhile..hehe..My birthday's over..Kinda had a lousy birthday~ sweet 16 my asss..Went swimming this morning and planned to played squash this afternoon..I dont think we're going..hehe..Hmm..i really have nothing to blog about now~ =) maybe next time..

=)

9thDecember2006,in on a Saturday night..for what reason im not sure~ ahh..My birthday's coming up~ i dont know what i want~ a car perhaps?or a house?haha..dream on~ xp
Sighs~ im not sure what to feel~ daddy's going to KL esok~ early in the morning lagi tue~ so yeah we have to be at the airport at around 630AM to send him off for his flight~..i dont know why but im kinda bummed out~
My day started out fine,or was it just alright?didnt had breakfast~ just had lunch~ couldnt really recall what i did to past the time but it worked~ so yeah at around 6 or so~ i've gotten hungry~ complained to my sisters since my parents were out~ and they were like "dorang bli mknan tue~" but in the end..i ended up going out for food~ went to ideal and got the blackpepper chicken~ didnt get to finish the whole thing though..my tummy was kinda in the state of "menyamal"-ing..so yeah~ was home~ kinda dragged my niece about scolding her every oppurtunity i had~ which was like all the time since she's getting gauk-er by the second HAHA...hmm..not such an amazing day~
6thdecember2006
i went out last Wednesday,watched a movie,deathnote(i loved it), with Nis,we hung out at westreet with Ajim,Ramzi and Rina first~ Last time hanging out with Ajim,he went to Holland last Friday damn that lucky guy~ he said he'll probably still be there even after the O'level results are out~ siuk!!Jealous~ we went jln around the mall before me and nis got in for our movie~ then after the movies we met up with them lagi~ but Rina was replaced with that uhmm..whats his name?Ben ka?yeah whatever~ they talked about going to Pasar Malam~ they went there and we stayed at the mall~ went around then knew Nabeyl was coming~ so we kinda waited for her and met her~ she was with dorang Azim(err..another azim), c "org bsar" and another guy..went around with them for awhile then we went different ways..me and nis to the foodcourt cause we were kinda hungry~ met dgn dorg Ajim lagi they were going home~ we ikut dorg to the elevator and waved goodbye~..LoL..then went to Jolibee~ the Abi guy was waiting there~ he belnja me burger..if you're reading this..thanx man..sorry had to keep you waiting..err..he was going home lagi tue at that time~ then me and Nis ate then i think we went home~ but before atu went to Utama grand i bought instant soups..LoL..
7thDecember2006
Thursday,went out lagi~ asked abg zul to picked us up~ sampai there..dropped arah westreet for awhile that cute "guy" was there..hubba~ LoL..then went jln2 with nis~ knew dorg Rhy was out so texted him up~ apparently his battery was low and his phone was switched off..so texted Rizan instead asked where his brother was..bought candies first then went to E.g.m where Rizan said they were there..rhy was talking to his friends..hung around there for awhile then went up~ we were at the cinema and rhy texted me up~ told him we were at the cinema and he came~ we went jalan for awhile,was about to head to the arcade when he saw abg zul eating sama his friend..then yeah we talked and talked and it was 6 Rhy had to go home we hantar-ed him arh rizqun..saw Rizan's girlfriend sitting alone~ kesian her..Guys these days..LoL..i went home short after and then went to arh tahlil~ my cousin's nini~..there cerita-cerita with my cousin haha..we went home after the makn..
8thdecember2006
went out with dorg my aunts..hunting for kain~ damn it was a very long hunt~ ~on one of those hunts me and my sister stayed in the car~ nyehehe..did some investigating and solved the case..and yet dorg my aunt havent got back to the car..so we went out of the car~ haha..lama wa dorg tue~ masih not done with the kain masa us went back to the car~ after 20 mins or so bru ta dorg appear~ that night i went online~ chatted with Ameer,Amir,Hanif,Nis and Atts..*i think i left out someone..err..sorry* the connection was fucked up~ haha..had Amir thinking that i was ambong~ + i didnt reply his text jua..Low credit~ i told you that!!LoL..then yeah chatted sama nis till like 1+ then He called marah2 *sdg* telling me to log off..and tidur..hehe..xp..so yeah went to sleep..xp
_XoXo_

Sighs..im losing control of myself day by day..having him around is useless..its like~ he's not there for me~ True~ i asked him to lose weight but then ntah?though im always there for him~ hah..fuck!Whatever..Every little thing pun we argue~ i love him~ but he cant see that~ all he see is my past mistakes..shit..hah..=]
yeah going on~ im chatting with haziq now,had a topic bout him forgetting me when he gets rich..haha..it was the lame "awu tu" "inda la" conversation..haha..panat~ just got home from jln with my cousin..well sdg~ i was home like an hour ago..so fuck whatever..haha..neways..went out at around 12..*i know,i know awal tue* went around memanat~ cant remember what we did~ then Lina *or should i call her Ka Lina..hmm..=\* mc then we went down met her at fun bread,i thought we were gonna jln sama2 but nop we didnt~ then sambung jln~ then met that guy my cousin's friend..duh~ rude much~ but his friend was kinda cute..*Striked due to something the public shouldnt know about* then we left had my noisy slippers on so when i jumped off the seat it kinda made a noise LoL..fuck him~ biar ya sasak~ not the cute one but the cousin's friend one~ tjmpa sdg ramai org tadi..=) hmm and i'm probably coming out lagi tonight..Still not sure though..aytes then..Mwahs sayang ya'll..him?ntah?i bury the feeling i have for him deep down saja~ just like the feeling i had for lelaki yang seorang atu~ True~ i hurt the one i love and true i'm not meant to be with the one i love..haha...fuck!Kinda sounds like Dana's dark2 poetry..mana ya anak atu aa?Chatted with her tadi pagi but like ia terus hilang..if you're reading this..i miss you,ass~ haha..
Much Love
#i8Faith