Love?Could it be defined or is it one of those things you could just never get?Yeah..i know its a crappy start but im getting to the part i pour my heart out..
Somewhere this year~ i've made a conclusion,its not love when it hurts..But then again..Could it be a greater love when it hurts?To sacrifice for the one we love just to see them happy?or could it just be,ones love has faded away and left pain on the other..Could that be love when we're just loving and not loved?Yeah its love but..an unfair one?Is love unfair in the beginning?No right?so it couldnt be love..Have you ever sat there and thought about this?i have millions of time..I'd daze of and think..'am i doing the right thing here?Could i really trust him?"
There are times i sit there and thought "owh how lucky am i..he really loves me ..i was stupid to not believe him.." i'd go all fluterry and wished he was there with me..*yes its soppy..but im pouring out myheart here*
There would also be times where i sit there and think "what he's done..could it just be a way to get what he wants?To fulfill his promise?i know him..he's not the kind to get out of his responsibilty.." or could i be wrong?I have doubts with this relationship and these kind of times are the times i'd wish he was never around..
There would also be times i receive news like "awu,sama lima bini2 lagi ya" and i still manage to smile..Cause deep down i could accept that fact..
Could that be love?Is it normal for love to this to us human?Sighs..
Feeling too depressed to think of more..i'll go on,on some other time..
XoXo