ohh..how i wish i am a star.So i can shine your way.To be the one you can rely on whenever you feel lost.
Ohh..how i wish..i was a writer who could publish out my wrtings in a book and make it seem real to the readers.
How i wish i could express everything and let them know how much they meant to me.
And though i know wishes arent real..how i wish i could make a change,to undo a part of the past and get things the way they used to be.To not feel an emptiness and somehow a sense of loneliness eventhough being out there amongst a whole lot of people who brings joy and laughter to te heart.
Because my heart skips a beat knowing that there's something lost from the past that could never be regained.and it hurts to just know that,despite knowing the fact that though having certain disabilities most people have this precious thing that i just cant quite get a grip on what it is.
ahh..though for the last few paragraphs i have refused to use the word 'i' but there it is amongst the words.i'm not quite sure what there is in this..because its all jumbled up.i'm just writing down what exactly my mind says at the moment and at that time.
*Eric Clapton - tears in heaven*
Makes you think of what you have and what you've lost.just makes you wonder if life was different..that what if some sort of event had changed its course.
445pm,09th August 2007.