okay, im supposed to be doing my sociology now, or at most look online for my presentation tomorrow, but my mind's just too muddled up. i can only think of him..i miss him..x( pak!and even if its not him, i think of the other him, and i thought i'm over him sudah..x( am i not?

Sighh~ i dont feel like going to school tomorrow x( i dont want to see that girl talk -_-" annoying much. if it was up to me, she'd be crying her eyes out right now, most probably begging, kissing my shoes licking the dirt of it for mercy. But too bad im just gonna get expelled from school at most, thrown to jail perhaps?or death sentence?labih2 tia jua -_-" but god im starting to hate her..it used to just amused me that she had always seem awkward around me, but now i think she finds a way around that; my baby. my 'flirtatious, hot, sweet talking' baby.Normally i would only have these sweet talking guys for amusement, guess karma got to me this time. -_-" i fell in love with him. Out from a bad relationship, into another. sighh~ boys~ But i thank god i have sii Mervyn Yeong..=] he makes everything a little bit better..=] thanks dy~ entah?if it wasnt for him apakah usul ku..-_-" inda beusul kali lagi.. or probably look the same, ganya.. antah..lol~

anyways~ a couple days ago, i finally told him that i broke a promise that he had earlier broke(the buddy; Mervyn Yeong that is). he was entah?furious but he didnt do it infront of me..he said that he'd prefer to have it then me doing so =) (manis ko ani ah dy, mun ko tau origin word atu inda pulang kau mau mengaccept kali tue..x) ) anyways so yeah..that was that..we're okay now. Only things with my baby just dont seem as fine as it used to be. He's gonna end up leaving me probably..or perhaps hang on, but with less than what we used to have. bodoh banar!! and the songs i have now just seem to mock me. they're mostly love songs. well i downloaded them, and i just got this laptop at the start of that, so yeah. sighh~ and i had that dream lastnight..=( that depressed me more. sighh..question, why i fell in love with him?and most probable answer, he's different, i chase him. damn it.. that was hard to admit and yet its true. Basshunter's now youre gone suddenly seems to fit me..

sighh..a few days ago i tried to delete his past texts but i couldnt, it only made me miss him more, made me miss the old days when i used to think he really did love me?or had he really?or does he still?sighh..he said alot of things that made me smile, and its creepy that he had this affect on me, where we'd meet for even just a few seconds and i'd feel like everything's alright then. its his eyes, and the way he smiles, it just makes me feel like i know what he's thinking, like all of it is out of sincerity the things that he said, his love everything or am i just a sucky 'mindreader'?and i just dont know who to believe now.i miss him like hell..sighh..

anyways, im finally getting my laptop downgraded, having problems wah this vista and at the same time im not sure if i want it as an XP. sighhh..i should get started on my sociology.it has to be one long essay,,or else.."wek"

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