As I was lying in my bed. I thought of how months went by. From the moment I stepped back. I just thought of how different things were. How my degree of contentment has changed drastically. How it feels like a sort of transit. How it feels like everything will change once its over. But will it?
I should be thankful that I have something to do, to divert my mind from what I miss most. 'You'. But things have changed, I should try and get a grip of that. Would things change once its all over?Or would it just remain?

Im scared, scared of for when its over. Scared for what's lying there for me. It was all clear when you were around, but it all had gone with you when you left. I no longer know what I'll do with my life. I no longer see. I dont know where I'm going with this. I just needed to type something. I need to unfeel what I feel.

Ahh.but my work's piling up. Exam's around the corner. I need to get a grip. I need to get this. I need it. Maybe then i'll know what to do next.