Since I was young, I had always believed that "Love" is something special. Over the years, I learnt that "Love" is a very powerful thing. So it comes naturally to me, to hate the idea of separating monogamy from love.

As tough as it is to swallow, here I am in a situation where monogamy is separated from "Love". Where "Love" isn't as special, and where "Love" is not powerful enough. It has beaten me black and blue and I have been trying to keep my head above water, but where is this going?To everyone around me, I am a fool, and I can't agree more.

Everyone has told me that, if you have good intentions, God will help ease the journey but nothing has been easy. Does this mean this isn't the right way? Is this a test for something undeniably beautiful? Is it just a test? All these questions, unanswered, giving space to uncertainty. I can't even get a grasp of what's going on.

Every day, there's a battle between my head and my heart, and every day my head kept losing. When my heart takes over, things don't get pretty either.