This should be the best time to write. 

Cool rainy night and just transitioning to something more chill.

I was looking back at my posts, didn't thought I'd be able to get back to writing. Well sort of. Slowly but surely. 

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I left it hanging. I have to admit, though it seems like I'm back on track, it hasnt felt as smooth as it used to. 

Blue skies, birds chirping, bliss. 

These may be difficult times for society, but this is really the sort of reset we all need. 

What I have had to go through over the years have proved myself that the past does define an individual at present. Not forgetting, circumstances, it's something you just have to fall into. Nothing that has happened or is happening to a person is because they "deserve it" and just because that's a scenario doesn't mean karma isn't real too. We're just put in different scenarios as a test to see how well we can adapt, are you human? the devil's advocate? or something in between. 

This doesn't excuse anyone from their actions, but it's not necessarily an energy you have to keep in your space. 

How much have I grown since then. It has felt so long since I feel like I'm back to where I left off. It has been one hell of rollercoaster ride of thinking I was redefining myself when I was losing myself. Borderline so thin, you could barely understand the difference unless you've been there yourself. All I could remember is a black cloud over those years. The hopeless romantic chasing after treasure at the end of the rainbow, with the help of a troll. Right. Like that worked out well right?

Well, here's the twist, it did, after it was all over. It was tough too though, I certainly wouldn't have thought I'd stop half way there and went back to where I left off. I didn't realise that I had ran off track and I'm so glad that was something that I could still go back to then and now, I'm ever so grateful.