The past years have been one hell of a roller coaster ride, with the pandemic, the situation at work and dealing with the trauma from my last relationship.

my last relationship, I hate to admit had actually done quite significant damage, mentally. I was in such a dark place, everything was in black, white with gray the edges. Not until I got out did I remember the world is filled with colors, which I later found out do fade away in certain spaces. When those spaces are filled by a dark energy, whom to be clear for the purposes of this post, are the human forms, they suck the color out of it.

I guess humans by nature are vulnerable, and this allows the dark energy - I mean other 'humans'(?) - feeds and engulf whatever the space it fills, turning it black, white with gray edges. The good thing about this is, they are contained to that space and it means you can still step out of the frame, back into color. If circumstances allow it, or if you have the balls to. 271121

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It's a new year, 2022 version. 

It's been one hell of a December and it was still the best month of the year. My December summed up the year perfectly. On a roller coaster, it'd be that bit where you twist and turn, and as all rollercoasters, it gets back to the platform. I couldn't have asked for any more. 

It's just the fourth day of the year, and though things remain the same, they have changed. It's difficult to put in words, but we'll just see. 

Bismillahirahmannirahim. 

January 04, 2022