Sighh~ it may be a beatiful night, but im feeling awfully awful inside..sigh..Family's there, busy webcamming with my sister and Yasmine in Thai..=] i want to be there, but this smile just feels limited tonight..sighh..

Just 'chatted' with afif, asked for the truth in things from him and there's really nothing new that i've found out, only that he claims he hasnt or had never told anyone of anything..sighh..he asked me if i still loved him..sigh..it just feels like a very depressing conversation, i wish i could have just not ever mention it, but the burning feeling inside of anger..just fills me up, and there's nothing he said that died it out. Only made it more worse or at most probably made it depressing..sigh maybe im just being overly dramatic, but the issue is just hard to forget.. sigh..i wish i didnt have to feel this way..sighh

its an add on to what im facing with the buddy, not really depressing just confusing. its like im stuck in a tangle of err..i dont know..my mind's just all over the place. and again im feeling awfully awful..-_-" sighh..im just too lost in confusion..there's just no words in my head to express all this. better be going to my techno..hMMmmm~ hope everything will turn out nice tomorrow..

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