27th - a date for ex-lovers to celebrate with maggi and kerupuk udang. HAHAHA!my god..just a random thought.

And its, 1152am and there's just 10minutes left till the laptop dies out on me. Supposedly out dengankan someone hantar buku but no sound of it,so malaaas tah ku.. It's been about two weeks durang the parents went for Haj and aku rindu duit..*cough* i mean durang..hehehe...xP ahhh..today's gonna be the second 'Jumat-Jumatan'? yakah?or whatever it is called, I no longer have an excuse to not be part of of the function..damn it!Aku rindu exam..lol!lainn~
There's and exhibition karang..


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Stupid "bibi masrum" brought stupid probably "tukang jahit yang ruined my raya" masuk kawasan rumah.. And gave Andy for her to hold?like apakan?suka hati nya jua.. Who made her boss??sheesh..and im trying to call bebeh..*pouts* jawap!!!!

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Sighh~ it may be a beatiful night, but im feeling awfully awful inside..sigh..Family's there, busy webcamming with my sister and Yasmine in Thai..=] i want to be there, but this smile just feels limited tonight..sighh..

Just 'chatted' with afif, asked for the truth in things from him and there's really nothing new that i've found out, only that he claims he hasnt or had never told anyone of anything..sighh..he asked me if i still loved him..sigh..it just feels like a very depressing conversation, i wish i could have just not ever mention it, but the burning feeling inside of anger..just fills me up, and there's nothing he said that died it out. Only made it more worse or at most probably made it depressing..sigh maybe im just being overly dramatic, but the issue is just hard to forget.. sigh..i wish i didnt have to feel this way..sighh

its an add on to what im facing with the buddy, not really depressing just confusing. its like im stuck in a tangle of err..i dont know..my mind's just all over the place. and again im feeling awfully awful..-_-" sighh..im just too lost in confusion..there's just no words in my head to express all this. better be going to my techno..hMMmmm~ hope everything will turn out nice tomorrow..

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hehe..yeah the title's true..im in GP class now..MISUSING THE SCHOOL's wi-fi connection..i havent had the mood to blog for a long time now..but yeah i finally come to my senses that i should blog out my boredom rather than clicking on the same links in friendster..xp

Hmm..i've missed out blogging alot of things that happened in my life since my last post,i've broken up with Afif now,the ohh-the-1year-6month-1day-old boyfriend..it wasnt hmm..i should say a good breakup,nor was it a bad one..but yeah,i guess he's still not over it,whereas i,have moved on.it kinda sucks though having to do so,since i honestlywant to get back with him.But with his so called 'bestfriends' i rather not.i just wouldn't fit into the picture.seriously!

So yeah,i'm attached now,with this guy,Saffuan,he's hot..lol..he plays rugby,and apparently was named "the man of the match" by his teammates.lol.He's a sweet guy,very,not to forget charming,my friends love him and they love seeing us together.Which seems weird cause we've only been like OFFICIALLY together for less than a month now..i love having him around,i feel safe with him..

=)
i argued with a very close friend last month..im not even sure whats it about now..hmm..uhh..my teacher's around now..

=))

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sighings on 25th April 2007
Is it a little too late or a little too soon?I've been crapping my head out missing him~ sigh..im being such a hypocrite..
i miss having to wrap him around my arms most..Ahh~ Most of my friends are starting to hate April~ some crap about it bringing bad luck and shit like that..i couldnt agree more..but i just cant make me hate the whole month fully as i did last August~
gawd..August?September?!sigh..what a bitch~ but things are for the better..at least for him~ i've tried my best..but i could've been better..sigh..saying that over and over to myself doesnt help much..sigh..i'm lost in this feeling~ sigh..
Not once have i cried ever since we broke,even when my heart yearns to..i dont feel like i dare to face him~ which makes me worry cause i have to go back to Berakas at about a weeks time cause im retaking my physics and maths 'O' level..and he'll be there..
Sigh~ i guess this sudden missing him berabisly is because the non-existance of 'sexy ass' and 'beh' in my life lagi..well there still there..but not..hmm..i dont know..
hmm..Projects are piling up fast..and im doing them in really2 slow speed..thats what i feel of days nowadays..none of my homeworks are properly done jua..sigh..
slacked off alot..!and by alot i really mean ALOT!!haha.crappiness~ stupid blog..!lol..wth?

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You knew~ how much you meant to me..
3rd April 2007
I wanted to go back,to you,to be there in your arms..To cuddle and snuggle the way we used to..to love and miss and need you..give 'US' another chance..but that thought was destroyed just as you have destroyed my feelings for you~
I'm trying to protect you from more misery and that is what you say about me?That is what you do?You've made me turn ice cold towards you..im sorry..but i honestly did love you.i still do..but i just cant let myself do so..
You and your jealousy..
You and your friends..
You and your 'love'..
You and your everything..Goodbye~..
*blows kisses*
#i8Faith
You know who you are..

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=(( inda dpt misscall ia lagie?i fucking feel empty..sadang..haha..me miss ia..ia nada sini..me mau ia..mana ia??=(..if ia ada~ bisai ni~ the room is already cold then have him around to hug me to keep me warm lagi..eish..siasiapun~
Sayang~ datang sini ta you bah~ out of the blues ada ta you knocking on my room's door..
*Starts imagining*
*Knock-knock*
Me: Nyeh~ apa?
*walks to the door and opens it*
*senyum malu cause my room's a mess..*
Him: hii sayang *hugs me*
Me: *hug him balik* dapat you kemari?jubur
Him: hehe..me kata tadi arh your mum me dgni usai bilik you..
*stops imagining*
it started to get corny and i know where its heading to..=P
if ta bnar wa..ish..mau him~ sgt2 berabis..boleh?haha..=P
Happy 27th ya'll..=)) May god bless you on this wonderful date..

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*giggles like a little school girl*
i'm in love~ i want~ need~ miss~ the one that i'm in love with..Completes my day everytime i meet that one that i love..ahh..After quite a long time (even if its not,to me it is) i finally have the chance to be there with ia..(Same day lagi tue,the previous meet was on the same day jua but different times..;))
Ahh.."Chocolate" holding on tight to you..*drEamy look* its like "Chocolate" is the cherry on top of an icecream..or a cake..or whatever has cherry on top of it..
Hmm..Inda laa..
"Chocolate" is half of the cherry while the other half is "him" my "him"..The one i share 27 with..hmm..make "Chocolate" ¼ of the cherry..
meaning i could leave without "Chocolate" if i have "him" around.
Ahh..27..coming soon in like an hour..I sayang him so much~ i want him so much~ i need him~ i LOVE him~ i dont know what this fluttery feeling in my heart is~ but im sure the cause is him..the one and only..~ ahh..syg~ me love you~ jubur~ im gonna miss you alot while im away~ ani sudah me mcam palui aa..~ u nie punya pasal~..hee..i wanna hug u so bad..I want you so bad right now..happy 26th..esok 27th~ hee..apakn..
You might be wondering~ wth am i talking about~..LoLx..as if~
Haha..whatever~
Mwahx..Sayang ya'll who sayangs me..*grins*
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Moving on~
Tadi i went out with Nis and abg Zul~ saja~ dari me stay at home melayan my boredom..we went to the area around Muara~ inda tau lagi where to go~ otw we talked about ...'s accident which sounded more gruesome than the one yg Amir told (since abg cerita in detail,the part yg the car got hooked to the truck and they got dragged blabla..$16000~ whoops..) then sampai cha us at Muara~ then abg headed to the pantai cha..masuk the pnta then..
Terstop...
why?
Pasal long queue kan masuk the pntai so us pusing..then singgah arh the kdai2 yg most likely boleh jadi mcm the complex near my house~ then after sana headed off to Serasa..then same thing..Ramai jua~ so pusing lagi~ that was when we ended up in..Mer..uhmm..nvm..cant remember the spelling jua~..LoLx..then stayed sana for awhile..told dorng pasal my encounter on the morning..i said "kamu liat sudah the video yg old woman.."(haha..shit kurang ajar jua tue me aa..panat) then i told dorang cha..yg i saw someone yg usulnya macam atu~..for details ask Naz..was with her tadi tue..LoL..sekali cerita2 than take video,bgmbar then we took off..Planning kn makan Taurean laa nie..(siasiapun) sekali ended up di Seri Balai,Berakas..why?Pasal i told them my mom message ckp dorg kn jln and they were waiting for me..Masa smpai sana~ i answered the call..sekali on the moment my mom kata "kn jln la,kami tunggu kau ni" was when i realise..DORANG TIPU!!Me gtau dorg..but i guess nis saja dgr since abg zul sambung jalan ke that restaurant~ so we went off mkn sana cha~..blablabla..cerita2~ then went home then masa at home i rushed to the toilet..then went out,bisai ni mencari camera aa..mcam.."mana ku simpan aa?dlm toilet kali" then texted nis,sekali ada cha kna call.. "awu ada..blablabla" hehe..pikir ta kn call pasal atu saja ni..rupanya there's more..talked to abg zul most of it~ kn almost an hour jua laa~ ia lagi gtau tu yang c *tut* pkai towel saja keluar and bdan nya lawa..Haish..trus terimagine ani wa..(since i've always noticed his badan yang lawa tue..siasiapun..ahha)..and i was like "abg take a picture" and he was like "bhapa?abg lelaki x aa..klw abg bini2 kali" and i was like pjal-ing him like "bah ada kali my camera tinggal tu aa" in the end he ambil kan jua gmbr c *tut*..after i had a sdg hard time teaching him (over the phone) on how to tutup the flash..LoL..sekali in the end ya bgi *tut ii* jua the camera then dorg bertiga ani bgmbr cha plg..*tut,tut ii and tut iii* tsktsk..salah~ at least ada gmbr c *tut* in towel..lol..but abg kata ia cover the towel..sob..inda jua siuk tue..=((..haha..panat~ haish~ connection lagi stupid masa ni..sasak neh~..aights thenn..out of words..sdg..
XoXo..

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27th september and the upcoming moments to it..LoL
Hee..i havent been blogging for quite a long time now..its 1003 pm now,27thSeptember 2006..Our first year together..On this very day..hehe..i didnt expect us to stay this long..hee..i didnt jinx it when i mentioned it on my previous blog..=) i so love him~ *blush*
Tadie i didnt plan to blog,cause i was already so into "Feeding frenzy" i have a grudge now on those big fish..Hmpph..Then my sister took over main "Poker" ia kalah so i guessed thats why ia suruh me use the laptop cha..=P
I cant live if living is without you~ *singing*
Hee..i was sleepy at around 10+ sudah actually lastnight..Thank god to Rhy(i talked to Rhy pasal the past and how to erase it..),Rizan and Riff i managed to stay up till 12..Yay..thanks guys~ then i texted him tia..I chatted with Ake plang jua but his message i didnt receive..But he did greeted..Then chatted with abg zul kjp after i sent the message then baru jua kn tidur..Jeez,cousin niz tgur cha..ia happy cause ia bru abis texting sama ..*ehem*..so ia jadi sweet and greeted me arah his nick..hee..
I miss him eh~ i want him~ i need him here to hug & kiss..LoL..wth am i doing?
Tadi while studying texted abg zul,psal sungkai out~ skali cancel cause we're broke..+ elaun abg alum keluar..I wanna meet him just so i could hear his story yang ia inda mau cerita "lagi" lastnight..haha.."Sir" "nick" tadie mrh2 cause dorang datang later then 745..but freakily was being nice masa me talking to niz tnya psal something on the board..then atts kata arh me "Fatin,baik ya today?Tau x ya one year" and us were laughing..LoL..duh~ we talked about the past lagi with Ka eyza..who seemed to want to erase all of that particular Past of hers..Which she i qoute,repeatedly said "kamu inda tau,kalau kamu tau wa" talking pasal past cha lagi..
Then masa right after school gitau him,i cancelled..Then he ada called..I missed his first call but i answered on the second call..ia kn bawa sungkai out today instead of Friday~ since me cancel sungkai-ing with dorang~ then i was like its alright..=) ia balik2 pjal for me to think about it~ ehhe..then me text him~ kata this Friday sja..So this friday ta saja~
nothing much really happened today~ to me~ its like a boring normal day yang made him & me officially one year!!Hee..i feel so mature..soo committed..=/ hmm..am i ready for commitment?

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I'm not suppose to be alright right now,but he made things change..i guess he's still special to me//but not on the top kind of special..well i just dont know..We were both depressed i know..

I chatted with him lastnight from around 12 till 1+ my god if my eyes werent already watery i'd prolly stayed all night just to chat with him..He made me totally forgot that we were both owned..?I asked something from him lastnight and he said alright..what i asked was something i can look at and remember our past..=)
this morning and afternoon i chatted with him lagie..He ate maggie twice today i know cause he told me he was cooking maggie..hehe..I think his girlfriend asked a break from him..and i was there ready to slip into his life again..But while i was so high up on cloud 9 my boyfriend called..He saved me from falling into "him" =) my boyfriend called me again saying that he read my blog on friendster and to say that he's sorry..I'm in his world again now..

before,i was high up in the clouds ready to float up to "His" world..hehe..I told Abg Zul lastnight i suddenly thought off him..and abg zul told me to call him up..I was about to,then niz thought that she should call "him" and i call her him..So we did..Her him,didnt answer my call though..he did but then hung up..Niz talked to "Him" for like 1min+..hehe..Why is this happening to me?God can you please give me a sign?To help me?"He" made my day alright..i'm glad he's around..=) if not i would've been the one to mope around.

=)

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Hee..i'm freakishly happy..=) that is if im not thinking psal that someone yg marah arah me..or at least that's how i think he feels..nyuhss..

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Im at the computer lab now..blogging..nyeh..a JUBUR is behind me..LoL..bebau lagi tu ya..hmph..

jubur pgng tngn ku neh-afif*ouch ya gigit*

nyehh..c\tu c jubur buat..hmm..havent been blogging for a while cant wait for the time for me to go blogging at home..hee..

hee..better go before sir me-round lagi~ hee..

Mwahx
XoXo

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I've been waiting for him to reply my text since a few hours ago..i feel so wasted..='(
Yea we had a crisis the night before lastnight.Ughh!!
I know i shouldnt post what he said but i just feel like it..

"Go out then!Goodnight?u're not going to sleep yet..Hah..Just think,how many times have i wanted to *join you?
do u remember when you said "i dont wanna go out"?u've said that around 10times already.Then when i had no transport.Then you'd text me telling me that you're going out.You did this so many times.I just didnt want to mention it.Dont you think i'm hurt?Even if i bring u out you wouldnt want to.Okay im sorry im not fun to be with,i'm sorry i'm not as sweet as u want me to be,and i'm sorry i'm not perfect for you..m sorry."

*go out

and when i woke up and read that test the text morning i replied sayin:

"U know what?i was actually looking forward to going out with you but now i dont feel like i even want to look at your face.Maybe i'm just being paranoid but yo'uve been kinda weird lately.You already know i've lost trust in you,you dont seem like you want me to gain them back.Everytime i strt to trust you,you'll do some shit that makes me lose faith in us.And btw dont say you love me when you dont!"

is it harsH?well i'm just saying what i felt!!so i went to school tried to act normal.that night(lastnight)though was a diffferent story,i went out with my friends and we went to the arcade..haha..stress was released.FuHh~ and i met them..HIM,IT!!Sigh.=) hehe..a day i will try not to forget..;) + "He" said sorry to me and we ended being okay.well i guess =/ sigh.its complicated.

I was actually pissed at him like 2 days before we fought.just because he didnt tell me at the very minute that he was home.but i tried to act normal.Then i was mad at him again the next day,because what?Because he didnt reply my text at the very minute he woke up,but instead he went online and took ages for him to say hi to me..Sigh.I WAS EXPECTING!!uhh..

And here i am still expecting for "HIM" to reply my text,AGAIN!!Sigh.

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June 05, 2006

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