I have been going on like this ever since we've gotten back together.. and sometime before that..
Feeling alot frustrated..too 'melayan' the feelings maybe..and the mind.. sighs~ but everything just falls into place..When i told a friend 'ia' backs up the theory..Sighs..
I feel that he's changed.. Our 'relationship' is no longer sweet nor is it bitter sweet..I dont know what i'm searching for..but i know,its not in him anymore.. Over and over in the same tangle of lies..that's somewhere i dont want to be.. I cant go on likethis forever..Going on everyday just to hope and try for things to be the way they were before.. He no longer has the ability to make me smile.. He's not even trying to.. It has always been about him lately.. Not lately as in for the past couple of days..but lately as in past couple of months.. I've had the chance to let go..but i just cant bear the idea of not having him around..Sighs.. I prayed to god the other night to give me a sign..and god gave me a dream where i was going up an escalator holding on the rail..and even though i know i was about to bump my head if i kept on holding it i still wouldnt let go cause i was freaking scared..Sighs..
Best of me - Jay- Z and Maya..fits me well..sigh..

Labels: keemosian, something from the soul