Im smothered with thoughts now, of old unsettled..hmm~ matters?Amazingly its not bothering me much. Shouldnt be bothering me at all to be honest.

Its weird that it just came passing by - well not pass but came by~ - at such "unexpected" times. A single 'incident' perhaps none, triggered the whole thing. Obviously, I seem happier now, but it feels like something is trying to pull me back to misery and thats these thoughts perhaps?should it even be?

This post seems to be theoretical?philosophical?and even a lame extract to my "current" deep, disturbing thoughts. Whatever it is, i doubt it could beat the 'greatness' of my previous blogs.
The ones inspired by true feelings and thoughts.
With this post, im just feeling indifferent, whereas my thoughts just runs wild, without even a proper field/topic for it to 'run around'. It seems unclear to what I am trying to say, and I know that I just need to post something up to let all these thoughts go.

though i am feeling contented, i feel like my once dysfunctional life seems better, if only, i didnt screw it up. ahhh~ regrets, one cannot live without. But this is not an official statement of regrets but just an emphasise that unnecessary thoughts are filling my mind.

Sighh..honestly, I am physically and mentally tired to deal with all the drama. I cant keep up with almost everything, from school work to everything outside it. I wake up in the morning, just because I want to see god's wonders, perhaps a better day and perhaps a new me?!But that, came less by day. Im changing back to old useless me, and though I'm bawling for a different me, at the end of the day, im still the same.=/ this is what disturbs me most. Why do I feel like I have the ability to be better and yet im still the same person I was?=/ Though late at night, I vowed to be a better me and yet early in the morning, im still the same ruthless person. =/

Labels: Random, something from the soul