My love is in this blog, my pride and joy. but i love you too beh..xP

I smile with satisfaction as I read, some of what I 'label' as 'something from the soul' on what I know is an inspired article.

Call it vain, or whatever, but I check this blog over than twice in a day or even within hours. Its not the chat box. Its what I wrote that I enjoy reading over and over again, as I hope you people would. For all I can remember, I've written since I can ever remember. Maybe its the passion for writing, or perhaps just a jolt of disturbance in mind - in which may mean just a small thing like, what you think when you look over someone's house to stuff like, life? - that I cant resist shaking off that has brought me to writing?

In English, where people usually like the comprehension part, I've preferred compisition, but I hated the ones where I have to write fact because, I guess, I lack it. Or just perhaps my judgement towards things are different. I had always been 'shy' with pointing out my opinion, I hate it, if I'm wrong and PROVEN wrong by the facts. It makes me feel small, and uhh..stupid?and perhaps ignorant?

I wont lie, but I hope to know more things of the world, but I guess my world is just too small, and I cant really shake out to the wide vast lands and oceans all across the globe. Well not that I'm saying I'm confined at home, and I rarely see the sun - which would be a *ucking lie. But I just cant seem to get further than where I am now, I just find it difficult to reach the facts. No matter how much I google, or I watch the news, but there's always, ALWAYS something that slips me, something important?I am not that ignorant, I know, and I am with confidence, stating it, but how could 'things' like this slip me?To say I dont care?I would agree on fitting in, and all those things usual teens have 'problems' with. I care with only what concerns me, not being to fit in, cause I dont look alot like you, I dont give a damn!
I do however, mind if people talk about me. Maybe I'm selfish to you now, but arent we all?Our actions, dont all revolve around other people, and if it were, we'd still be selfish to ourselves, not thinking of what we need.. And no doubt the others are selfish too as they dont really want us to do things for ourselves.no?

Well that'll probably explain my dislike to writing factual compositions, because in the 'imaginative' ones, I cant be proven wrong. I love to have my life, simple and carefree, rather than complicated and tiresome. I try to please people, but not very hard, and even if I do try hard, there's really a selfish reason behind it, a teeny part of me wants it too, a teeny part of me wants that compliment, and that part of me, wants the standards, those other people want - in a reflection of me, or just me, myself.

So now you see how much of a selfish person I am, will your judgement about me stay the same?=) Cause I'm also considerate..really!xP

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