Saturday, December 08, 2012
What do you do when you miss someone and you truly want them to know but at the same time, you dont really wanna do that?
Ive started to accept the way things are, handling things with more diligence. Whatever bullshit that comes my way, stays for the day, and never to be thought off days after.
I think I've also finally accepted the idea of work, and is now eager for paperwork with a payroll at the end of the day. My dreams will come true eventually, for now, what I need to do is just.. roll with it.
I've also learnt patience. I learnt that fate will work its way.
Its December, 8 days has passed. The year has been quite upsetting for me. But I've come to a conclusion, its just for the year. Its preparing me for next year. God knows what He has planned for me. It might be a surprise.
But there's still that feeling deep down inside, that things was just perfect with you around. I wish youd knew that youve made me the happiest with your presence. I hope I will eventually get around that feeling and overcome it.
So I basically have nothing to blog about. I just drove for the first time in the heavy rain, it was scary. But it was an experience.
Alot of drama had been going on, and oh god!were they all high-school, pre-school stuff.
Ive gotten sick a few days ago. K.O-ed for 2 days. I have never experienced coughs that were agonising. With a rising temperature of 40.2. They say, getting sick was a way to erase sins. Then I am thankful for that 2 days. But, if possible never again.
So really, I dont know what is there to blog about. I just like the feeling of writing down something as if i'm writing an essay. I miss that feeling. I miss work. I miss typing. I miss learning.
My everyday is getting on to me, and I'm starting to get sick of it.
I didnt get enough sleep lastnight. I dont know why. And my aircond's broke, so another night with just the fan. I hope i'll be able to sleep tonight. And amazingly!I wasnt tired.
I actually had a great day. Family time in the morning-afternoon. Friend time at night. Home before 12. And I think its worth to be grateful for. Or maybe thats just the fatigue thats talking. Maybe I am actually tired, and writing things down is just a way for me to not realise that?hmmm.. Possible. And plus side, it makes me feel like i'm doing work and all grown up.. *beams
So..yeah, ive been saying ive nothing to write about and just kept on ranting about stuff. I think I shall for now, go to sleep. Or at least try to. Or!I could set up my station again and watch movies?Maybe. We'll see how I feel after i've clicked the 'publish' button.
Publish, its like such an official work-ish word. Gives me a sense of.. grown-up-nism (if that is even a word).
Okay I'm pretty sure I am beyond tired now, and my brain just keeps on shouting random things, so I'd still be typing and stay up for no particular reason. I think I shall set up my station. Yes I shall!
So Adios.
Labels: everyday ku., not getting to my point, Random
December 08, 2012
Monday, June 04, 2012
Lastnight was my last night in Bangor. We planned a last 'chill out session. But we ended up watching movie till the break of dawn. It was alright. Im on a train heading to London at the moment. Here goes. Havent had breakfast, feel like my packing's unsettled. Still have tons of things to do. But for the moment, I'll just try to enjoy this ride..:) Its apparently a Sunny day. And its a Monday, hoping for a good start to the week. :)
Labels: announcement., everyday ku., not getting to my point
June 04, 2012
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
A relationship cant make your life a whole lot better, knowing that you're loved does.
And a song from Olly Murs to start the day can make your day too..=)) well at least mine.
Im at the library at the moment. Supposedly doing my Public law revision BUT I forgot where I left of..-.- soo..Im procrastinating for a little bit.
Yesterday, my brows were done, and they're ultra thin now. I look like Chinese..-.- soooo..weird.
awwwmmm..what else..nothing really. well there was that Junjung Ziarah I went to in London. Like couple of days ago?But then again.. hmmm..oh my..so there were tons of stuff going on. But since, ive been such a lazy ass to update, and even upload pictures, they remain only in my mind. and thoughts. Oh my!
met these girls. ♥♥ had a great time too..teehee..So awwmm..gotta be getting on them revisions now. Exam starts on the 12th. Blog soon after. Got tons of things planned.
Labels: everyday ku., Random
May 04, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Back to reality.
Missing the part where I had our vacation..:( Be posting pictures sometime.. Not tonight. Too depressed. heh.
So yeah.. had one of the best times of my life. And being back just feels, weird. Its good to be back to all the familiar smells and sound and everything.. But..its just soooo weird. Had about 2weeks away. And I cant emphasise this enough, but the best times of my life.
Nothing beats. Its like being home-sick, but worse. Cause its only been home for a week. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!Labels: celebration, everyday ku., keemosian
April 20, 2011
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Despite an issue that has rose.
I had one of the best weekends ever..=)
Labels: everyday ku.
April 03, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
And i thought, itd be the best thing I could get since the past few months.
Turns out. it wasnt.
Please get better soon.
Labels: everyday ku., something from the soul
March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
What do you do when everything starts to fall apart?
Watch the ruins and try to walk through it.
and we're thinking of heading to noodle one for lunch. (again) last time. failed. this time, another shitty thing. sudah tah kali eh..-.-
and ive got class at 4 later..so...hmmmmmm..i shall shower..=]
Labels: everyday ku., something from the soul
March 01, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan ke 27, negaraku, Negara Brunei Darussalam.
And at this very moment, with my cup of tea, looking out the window. The fog seems to have subsided, but it still does look foggy. I need to do my work, but I just cant seem to focus. So Im just chilling, looking out the window.
My days have felt empty. I miss him. I miss home. I have no reason to go back other than my family. It used to be him. Ive been thinking through, im just beyond speechless. So its been another day in my room. They took my shower today, they cleaned it. its now clean. sigh. I really dont feel like blogging. This seems overdue. But Im feeling patriotic. And I miss homeland. Im at a point in my life thats just fucked. Its a huge ball of mess. And im just wandering the grounds cause I dont know where to go from here. sigh. And yes, this blog needs lightening up, thats why I posted this. But now I shall go on chilling, and then start with work.
Labels: announcement., celebration, everyday ku.
February 24, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
What do I do now with all this love I have for you?
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They're planning to go for a movie. I hope its just not one of those romantic comedies.
Id like a good laugh.
without having to think of you at the back of my mind.
You know, its not your pity that Im asking for. I dont need your pity. What I want is for you to know.
Labels: 567, everyday ku.
February 20, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
The world doesnt need to know my stuff.
but I still have the right, to put it out.
I miss you M.
Its Saturday, thought of doing something. But, just too knackered. =]
If I dont hop on board, I just feel it..
and it hurts like hell.
Labels: 567, everyday ku., keemosian
February 13, 2011
Monday, February 07, 2011
Sometimes, running away is the best option.
Can you picture, closing your eyes, with the wind hitting on your face?
Thats what literally happened few days back. In the rain, at 0400, over the top crazy wind, rain dripping like crazy on your face. Just closed my eyes, and that was all I felt. Everything else just seemed to be washed away by the rain, blown away by the wind.
So its Sunday..night. Tomorrow, classes. Pulling things back together..=]
So, yeah.. crazy week. For everybody. Sasya came back today. She like kinda was gone tarus. lol. tired.
So yeah.. im hungry. Im gonna go cook, and chill and sleep.
Labels: everyday ku., something from the soul
February 07, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Planning an all-nighter. So this is uni life. Workload..and little time for play. its alright.. I need to do this..=)
So talk about being bummed. Its Saturday night. And my exciting plan is....*drum rolls* definitely buat kerja. Then Monday gonna chill for abit...THEN..do my other work..=] hopefully. I really really need to be somebody else. And..my exam..it was fucked up. I kept on thinking about it everynight..and what i couldve written down..=( sigh.... I know it wont account to an A or a B..but Im still hoping for it..:( I really am.. im so disappointed in myself. Its not that I didnt do enough revision. I just got striked out from writing more. Idiot. Sigh.. I gotta pull myself together..and battle the next five papers tremendously in May?
Cant wait for the Summer scene..=] but...REALITY WAH TU..REALITY..sigh..Im so confused right now.. Like with everything.. I really have to sort myself out.
Lastnight.. I went bawah, they were like..chilling saja, ada main monopoly, game, poker..others buat lain.-.- and i was part of the others..buleh jua lah...HAHAHAHA..pacah jua lah..HAHAHAHA...-.- apakan..so cause of that, slept arah si fids..went back at like 10ish?in the morning.. and i was like sneaking out..i literally did.. and screwed up thing was..i wasnt even sure if it was cold or not. -.-retarded kah?
I really wanna travel during summer, a few days pun okay wah.. and im such a pathetic loser. I just liked Oakley Uk..-.- oh my god.. i really should start back on my work.. here i go..*shivers* the temperatures way too cold.. and the terang2 shiz..im over it. so im with just one lampu.. and hmmm.. yeah. Sasya left this morning. She's going to Brunei.. And im gonna start semester Monday..same day imma hand in my assignment..-.- :( i feel soooo..down right now. Maybe its the night thats fucking it up..=] holla soon!
FYI!aku sasat ni new semester ah!and ive got one class di dean street like whot?!And i still havent done anything more to my assignment..im like soo...unmotivated..and omg!been eating the same thing day and night..today that is.. I dont know..something's screwed in my body.. maybe ill start eating again once uni starts..but till then..omg cant wait for tomorrow's dinner, when my kfc comes..and im all happy person. and i miss the kids this very moment... For some particular reason..Harith..and Yasmine has grown up such a pretty girl..though layah2..-.- okay why am i writing this down?its cause im looking at their picture..and I miss Andy..and Waie..abang?hmmmm..inda lah..HAHHHAHAH..kesian abang eh..and omg i wanna eat icecream for some reason (looking at the kids' picture) =] back to my main focus for the night.............
Labels: career, everyday ku., exam, not getting to my point
January 23, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
My exam's tomorrow..
And never had been the floor to any place I study, dont look like that. Huahuahua..my table's too small for me to study mmkay??best alternative. Wish me luck!i am now eating dinner, left over garlic rice from this morning, and home-made kentucky chicken..(kentucky flour covered chicken) ;p
Labels: everyday ku., exam, Random
January 19, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Im doing this for you my loyal reader(s) if any. [The blogging part that is, not the picture]ODAH!Aku dangar lagu sedih..so aku mcm..mau begambar sedih macam org frust. karang lah ku tonggeng2..frust menonggeng.wawawa..im so funny..like shit head no. screw you.
Sigh..today statrted on typical.. What made it another awesome day was getting my tv. Getting to skype with boo. Something happened lastnight.........
Lemonade was spilled on my carpet, and its not dry till I woke up this morning. I dont know if its even dry now.
And..omg yeah.. i dont remember...-.- sigh.. tadi i managed to study for over an hour. and actually enjoyed it. tomorrow i will study more..=) Okay.. i really blog the shit out of my head, but my mind is just in a bad place right now..=( soooo..im listening to babyface.
I wanna know things.. I wanna know, if signs are part of reality. I wonder now, if people and sense could ever mix. For some reason, I just had a flashback, of being back in Kampung. Like in the old days, when I was a kid. When everything was all play, nothing major really happened. Its cliche, but I want to relive those days. For some good reason, innocence was part of serenity, of something simple and happy.
Im cold, and I remember that one rainy night back home, being with boo..=']
sigh..
Something has gotten me thinking, and with no answer or some shit. You know like the kind of thought that just lingers, but doesnt really result to anything. Have you ever had those thoughts?That all you do is think of something, and thats that?sigh..
Okay..my mind's really not in a good place right now, and i basically just cant type stuff out. and im in the library at the moment..and...its 6pm.. and I miss Brunei..and I have an exam in a week?And im thirsty..sigh..
Labels: everyday ku., not getting to my point, Random, snapshots.
January 14, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I dont like this feeling. I fucking hate it.. and I.... hate her.
How many people in the world do I hate?one. her.
BANCI KU!ughhh!
what a waste of post.. but..im just so..sad about it..i mean..sigh..
Labels: announcement., everyday ku., Random, something from the soul
January 11, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Hello..=)
Im feeling a tad bit better now. I still miss home, but its more okay now..=)
So I found out that I only have one exam...and so..im slacking for abit. Dont worries.. Ill try my best to overcome that. Ive got inspiration on my wall..=)) I hope theyll make me go through this.
I think one of my greatest weakness here iss....online shopping.. like really..im like here for just 3days, and ive already bought something online..-.-
So..im gonna head down for dinner tonight..for the past two days ive been in my room, first night no dinner, and last night chicken(present birthday kali ah) then off to sleep. Tonight, I hope could help me with my sleeping pattern..causeee....i dont want to be so jetlagged. I hate the thought, cause that just made me miss home..-.- okay okay..enough..sooo...hmmm..aku kan away from the laptop mmkay??=))
blog later!and ooh..check this out..stocked up!
Labels: everyday ku., Random, snapshots.
January 10, 2011
Saturday, January 08, 2011
I just realised my 'safety vault'.
It was why, leaving was hard.
So you really cant please yourself. You say this one time, then the other time, you just dont wanna be back in this room. I miss everyone. I feel like such a big baby. But I really miss everybody. ;(
And as tiring as travelling is obviously. I cant believe I had to go through it with a 27.9 kg worth of food. HORRIBLE!and the wheels to the bag was!!BLEAGH!And.....i missed two direct trains!The last one, I missed by just a few minutes.. sigh. But at least, ive made a run for it, or so it seems with a, not pull, but more of a square/rectangular bag with wheels!I try pulling on the tali or whatever it was..THE THING FELL OFF!!T.T on top of that.. (although we had breakfast three times in the plane crazy uhh?) I hadnt eaten. Well I sort off did, but...comeon!By the time I arrived, I was all out of energy.. I couldve just left the bag there. And thank god, di Chester this lady helped me out.. i hope she notices how grateful i was, by the number of times ive said thank you. and thank god, for giving me the idea to ask for assistance dari awal.. Mun inda wah...T.T
So...ive unpacked. Its not fully done yet..=] Ive got so many stuff..I dont have enough space!
I think I might just clear the space all my stuff is hogging then head to bed. Without proper dinner. Or dinner at all. Right now, im just soooo tired... I wouldnt care!Let tomorrow me handle that. But like seriously its just what..like 7 here..?But then again, I havent really slept. Let my studying be conveyed tomorrow. And im serious..=)
its for all the people I miss. Or at least..Ill try to..=)) So my eyes are getting really heavy now..=) i think i might just start unpacking..and head to bed soon. =)) blog tomorra. Maybe after or inbetween studying.
turra!
Labels: everyday ku., Random
January 08, 2011
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Soaking in the last night in my room. Just when you finally get used to it again.. Reality just has to pull you back..=]
anyways...4 out of 4!
Mere coincidences ah.. Spent today with two bitches. Thanks guys.. Pictures to be uploaded soon I guess.. Might be tonight.. Will see..
I think I did all the things I wanna do.. And got everything i needed to get. Tomorrow, will spend time with the kids. Tadi had dinner with the family..=)
awwwhh..ill have to work for this..
It really feels heavy this time..:( like harder.. cause i know what im going back to..:( not that its much of a hell hole..but its not much compared to what I have here..=')
Okay..might just be exxagerating..=) Will be uploading pictures now.
Labels: announcement., everyday ku., keemosian, Random
January 05, 2011
Monday, January 03, 2011
Its getting really weird....
Funny weird..hehehehe...
Leaving in a few days..:( 3days to be exact. Not psyched for an over than 2 hours flight....
Bleagh!Oh..its 2011 already.. I think I kinda blogged that.
Malas ku blog..aku kan turun liat cerita ghost.. turra nigga higga.
Labels: everyday ku., keemosian, Random
January 03, 2011