And dad texted and Im like all............... sigh.

I dont know how to overcome this. I know its just awhile, and I know this is like sooooo over exxagerated, ive done this before and I was okay. Im just not that settled in yet. sigh.

I dont remember if I blogged this in my previous posts, but I.. remember being on the plane and feeling all depressed cause I remember the last time I was on a plane, and I was so excited..cause I was on my way back. :(

Then there was this other time, I couldnt sleep. So I closed my eyes, and imagined back to when I was on my first flight heading there, with my parents on my left, and brother in law on the right.

OMG!I AM SOOOOOOO....I dont know?emotional right now..:(

And this morning, after showering... I was like all sad again, cause i remembered the last time I showered (exclude the one yesterday) it was on the night, I was gonna head back..:( I remember how the night was... I remembered how that day went. I remembered how relieved I felt having landed in Bangkok, having to actually spent my 6hours in Asia. That I was actually back in Asia with Asians. (mostly) I remembered.. going out of BIA and seeing the faces of my parents, my sister and Syahmi's..:( I remembered how serene it felt. I remembered.

I remembered the first hug Andy gave, I remember the smile on the maid, I remember Wa'ie expressionless (well, straight and like huh? but not obvious) face. Seeing Sara for the first time. Going back to my room. Dinner with the family, second time stepping foot to Times Square, it was late, nada lah food. Omg..I remember..

sigh.. I dont know how long this will go on.. but i really need to stop. Sigh.. Im gonna head off now. Its time to study.

January 08, 2011