'...i laid still under the covers, feeling slightly the way I felt when I first read it. Thoughts suddenly came rolling to my mind. I wasnt sure what I wanted now. Memories came rushing back. I felt shame, I felt like spitting to that horrid figure that had seemed to take my efforts. I wouldve cried then.. but it didnt seem to matter. It was long past due, and it wasnt fair in my mind.
As I laid there, I felt the fire burning down.

....I just thought I was ready.. but I wasnt.'

So, i was thinking of getting something pierced again. I dont know why. I dont really know. But then I thought, things have gone in such a messy blur lately, maybe I just wanted a pinch of reality?or some cliché shit like that. But i dont know.

Have tons of thing to do, even just for tomorrow. Not really, but alongside my everyday 'busy' life, it seems to much. 

I had tons to blog about. But i kinda lost it. So will try to blog soon. Poor blog. Neglected for quite awhile. Id want to post pictures to sum things up. But...... It'll eliminate the use of my tumblr. Soooo..nevermind. gotta head to bed. Class at 9. Every-freakimg-morning.

*snores