With excitement there it felt like a ray of hope just came shining through the windows of my soul. It was just to bright for some so they drew the curtains and the windows just shut closed and Im pushed back to my gloom.

For years, I've envisioned this big break, this chance. I just dont understand, why I have to just give it away, without even dwell for abit in its shadow, to know that I was at least a little closer to it, just for something that might take me even further away from it, though it is somehow in its path - so close yet so far. I think this is tearing me apart, it really is..=((


At this very moment; Last Comic standing sucks!its annoying!They're not funny, they're americans?!

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I dont believe a chance like this will come again, so I'm torn, very torn to let it go. I still dont know what awaits me, and its terrifying to look at another downfall. That's why I dont want to let go a chance as priceless as this. I've stated it in my book to not mess chances, but this is beyond my will. sigh..

Labels: everyday ku., keemosian, something from the soul