Post my day out on the beach..and also the pictures..but time's just limited..been very busy..now even doing the ppt (powerpoint tu..dalam dictionary ku sama si atts haha) for tomorrow's permission, cause i sent the file for atts to review, her sister's editing it for me..YAY!
OMG!!im tired..-_-" and i've bawa2 org yg inda kena mengena ngalih bersama ku..-_-" THANKS~ and Maafkan aku~ apakan~ deep tia..lol~ ohh..god..my body's aching all over..-_-" and i cant think straight..well straight..to the sense that im just saying whats exactly on my mind now..ahh..i love to blog about my day at the beach and posts picture, but im just way too restless.. 7^*&^*^&& okayy..im just paking tired here..just need to update the blog a little (like omg!i was gonna write upload the blog instead of update..-_-")

Inspired by a black out and a day out in the sand.

I was just lying at the couch trying to make of the remaining cold atmosphere. The electricity’s been gone since even before I got home from the beach like 5++ pm ago. My dad talked of the stars (on how much it is visible and how long he hasn’t seen it that way) and that is how it hit me! I prefer the low end of life. (Well that wasn’t actually how it came about, wanted to go out and looked at them myself but I don’t know how they just got this idea of people taking advantage – in which truly disgusts me, the thought itself and the possible event.)

People nowadays are mostly competing to get hold of the latest gadgets and all that technology stuff. Competing over who has the most advanced, not forgetting; competing to show that they are CAPABLE of getting the more advanced (even when that means having loans in like 3-4 different banks.) Well I’m not really trying to be critical here, but I just needed a say. (If this is posted on Borneo Bulletin again under someone else’s name~ I’m just about to be a millionaire *wide smile*) So the point to what I was saying is that, they have never really seem to take a break from all that and just sit back in an old-fashioned manner. Well not exactly what I had in mind, but I just cant seem to put my ideas in words. What I actually want to point out is that, technology has taken over their lives in every way that they forgot that the simple life is FAR more stress-free.

I’m trying not to be a hypocrite, but fact is, I’m showered with all of these technologies myself. In fact, I even used to be good in handling them too. Though so, since I was little I had also enjoyed nature as much as the next person does – just on the basic level, e.g. “love gazing at the stars”, “love the beach”. This was however, further ‘developed’ as I grew older. Nature, I thought was my way of releasing stress, and I thought the beach was a great way, so did my friends. This thought was cancelled off recently, and now I find beaches a depressing place that allows you to think more then be more depressed! That was around December, last year. I realised this, during the reunion when I was talking to Ameer. So I wasn’t really excited when teacher told us that we were going to the beach on our field trip. I knew I’d be depressed there, turns out I was wrong. I wasn’t much at the beach now, but more to the sky.

I was quite broken down early on, and I was on the verge of giving out, ehh I did gave out. Everything seemed to go wrong, a fall on the rocks, let me rephrase, sharp pebbles. And my phone’s went on a bad condition, probably cause it fell with me, its all scratched now.*sighhh and some more other stuff.
So yeah I slumped down the sand, having no thoughts in my head just mere frustration. And I don’t remember how, but I laid my back on the sand, and I saw the sky, it was beautiful, and blue and refreshing, the sun wasn’t shining straight to my eyes and that made it more wonderful. At that moment, everything flew by me, and all I can think of is nothing, and all I can feel is, nothing. I stared at it for awhile but I was interrupted by another of god’s wonderful invention, a man, my cinta =). I don’t know why but he has always, had that effect on me. Its like on one of those over-dramatised romantic books/novels, where it claims that all one can see when they are in love is that one person they are in love with. That the world - as these couples claim it - is their own. See, these are over dramatised but in a sense they are kinda true. I wouldn’t be very much aware of the surrounding if he’s around.

Err..i seem to be drifting of to another thing now..hee..and i am kinda out of words..so uhh..will have a continuation of this some other time..x)))

Labels: something from the soul

i have this very "pushy" feeling to blog, only thing is i have nothing to blog about..so i asked buddy to give me a nice picture of him..in which i have no idea to do what with it.

a day out at the zoo in bangkok..yasmine's dolphin hat on my head..an awesome coke zero and something in the bag..lol!

caught by an Octupus

open up sharky!!

driving with the pishy's there's fish in the car and the octopus caught my leg while watching it, curiousity kills the cat they say.

Labels: celebration; birthdays

I AM IN LALALALALA~ heee..
beri much in love sama si cinta.. beri much the plying after being with himm..even for a split second. The words that come from his mouth..are just sweet lullabies. is that right??or should it be lullaby's?heee...:D which reminds me he did hum a lullaby.hee.. so yeahh.. im in what they call 'cloud 9' i guess..

So yeah its another Saturday, most probably another night in..T_T..*checks time* baby's out now. And will be again later.. "happening" night nya..hahaha!

So had school today..was kinda nervous to come to school. and im hungry..lol just a random thought..so yeah~ nothing interesting really today..things turn out fine..its tomorrow that im kinda excited about.. wanted to go play wii but then..battery's low... so cant practice the tennis..T_T no IPOD thenn..sighh..=( i need new mp3 waa!!battery atu inda tahan kan buat segala2nya..sob..so there's really nothing to blog about..so tutu~

Labels: something from the soul

just as the title says~ this blog is about my not interesting day..xP

Okay so i had school today..and it was a very VERY LONG and SLEEPY day~~ things went on a moderate speed. Was sleepy through out all 3 lessons, except for sociology~ though the weather was perfect for a good sleep..x) it was raining..and the cold breeze was very comforting..so yeah..back to my day..had PS on the first block..that went normal..only did one thing that i WONT be doing again..lol~ paluiii..was with the cousin, location was the ground toilet in block A, why was couldnt wait to go to warung, which was..err nothing and when was..DURING PS BLOCK!!lol~ anyways..yeahh so thats the only odd thing out of all things, so onto the next block, which is block 5. had to do some work..didnt quite finish it, was quite confusing, its like the questions are the same..-_-" only the numbers differentiate themm..anywayss..next was break, nothing happened, then geography then history..then sociology~~ had sociology sampai pukul 3..:))

thenn..thenn..went warung..got my socks soaked arh the mud ahh..T_T kamah waaahhhh!!and wettt!!pfftt so we stayed sana tunggu my socks to dry tapi batah waa..and i had like 4 in less than half an hour!!LIKE OMG!!!!-_-" stress kahh ku..T_T inda lagi terasa abis..-_-" then yeah..we went back to school walautaah my socks didnt dry..sat arah table..then ada tia si cinta ku..x)))) then spent the whole time atu sama ia..smpai masa balikk~ we drew on the table..in which i shouldve taken the picture and posted it..but i forgot..and the phone~ the LG habis battery~ and the nokia..ohh well..i just dont want to say it..:D aku sayang kau dy~~ ohh..and that reminds me..we seem so distant now..:/ azim aka si cinta ku noticed that too..:/ and i dont want to ask questions cause i know si BUDDY wont answer juaa..so yeahh..biartia..buat bodo..=) thats what i do best..*kelips* so the "art" that we drew tadi..might be posted up tomorrow..tutu..i have to go shower, then study..=D

Labels: keemosian, Random

So I'm sitting in my room, blurred eyed, messed up hair, thinking of how much i miss him. I suppose there are better things for me to do, like study for my test on either tuesday or wednesday. hee..

So yeah~ the wind's blowing quite err..hard?err..strong??okay whatever, the thing is, its more than just windy outside, and i dont know how, but i just pictured him walking down the beach..lol!random~ anyways..back to my random-ness~

Just came across Jan's blog, seems very organised..while mine is just like simple..and cheerful..xP hehe..

listening to eel's i need some sleep now, and somehow, i got flash backs of what i've left behind..sigh..and i dont know why, but that made me miss azim more..-_-" kalinngg~

ohhh god!!the song just changed..to frankie J's dont wanna try..i miss afif now..-_-" for two reasons~ someone used to think he looked like frankie j..-_-" and that the familiarity of the lyrics..sob.tudududud~ okay im out of randomness..soo tuduuu~~

WOOHOO~ the wireless connection just worked..x) got nothing much to blog about actually just that.and that i miss him..x( will upload pics of dy's gifts later..tudu~

a month to go till afif's birthday..lol!that was the first thing on my mind when i looked at the date..=)

im at home currently waiting to be picked up..was told "in half an hour" i think its been more than that..tududud~

its been awhile since i last blogged..alot of things happened, and that kinda killed my blogging mood, even if i wanted to blog it i wouldnt have the words perfect enough to post it on my blog..

So yeah~ updates; im feeling so-so, i kinda miss him..kindaa~ x) oohh..my "intake" has gotten worse!!-_-" most probably the unable to open up thingy~ (yatah si buddy mengomplain and marah ku ni pasal nyaa hahaha) anyways back to him, things are more open now between us, he's telling me THERE ARE other girls~ and its cool for me to "flirt" around with other guys~ or as he claim i do~ and he's saying that we will PROBABLY go serious~ PROBABLY~ in his exact words were "but not now, me ada banyak girlfriend jua masih masa ani and you.." that i cut off saying i dont have alot of girlfriends just as he does and he corrected me saying the guysi flirt with..the hell..-_-" i flirt little~ alot on fadhil though~ he's perfume smells nice wahhh~ *angkat2 kirai* Hii dhill~~ LOL!! but thats just fun~ pfft~

and ooh..im trying to clean up my act now, im slowing down my intake =) and i have to get back up to my studies, AS is coming soon. Im worried about sociology~ and about "exam skills" thingy~ i never seem to be able to write fast, its like my brain stops working in the middle and it starts again at the end. not end of the essay but end of time..T_T sighh..and whats more worrying is the past sociology homework sir balum bagii!!so i dont know if i progressed or not..sighh..which reminds me..i have sociology test tomorrow, on crime and deviance, can someone help me??=D pretty please with sugar on top..xP

im wacthing this show, thats about a pig that can talk to people, and its weird that they have it interviewed in show in the movie..-_-" at times it just makes you wonder of the intelligence of us humans dont it??lol!

OHH GOD!!i miss having a boyfriend, well kinda~ i do love this single life..x) guess what i have now is okay..x) im in love with someone well kinda~ this statement does make me smile though..xP and we're not really together..so entah~ hehe..which reminds me a friend who he's going after pfft~ just told me about him texting her and wanting to meet her,boo you baby!she didnt know about me and him,(there's nothing really?:/ i just dont know) so when i told her she was like, booh..lol!but i wasnt pissed at her, or him..seriously~ which is like weird..if i told buddy~ he'd probably go think~ i dont want that~ he's done enough thinking part for my..=)

ohh..which reminds me, buddy's back sudah!!he got me a pencil case, a starbucks mug and a fresh mint..*angkat2 kirai* would post the pictures up later, PROBABLY if im not busy with stuff..=) now that reminds me of my geography walking out of class she was paking pissed at us, for not finishng our work. She talked for about 10mins or so then she walked out..:/ but she's abit okay now. But this does mean that i have to REALLY clean up my act now. Have to really get my studies together. Geography and history my probably only hope, im not very sure in my GP :/ i just want my teachers to quickly mark my work cause i wanna know how much i've progressed, for history im doing okay~ i might pull myself up if i studied more. its this other two, sociology and gp that im worried about, geography might be okay, might be able to brush it up abit, im gaining this confidence ever since i got a B in my AS..x) so unexpected, and that just reminds me that he wanted to belajar geo from me..x] or with me..x] oohh..my phone's ringing again..guess im finally picked up..see youu

was going through naz's blog early on, just realised mine needs updating..*angkat2 kirai* which reminds me, buddy's still away..x)

oohh..we just had the parabola installed..now waiting for the wireless connection lagi kn di install, once thats done, home is perfect. first off, inda pyh kelayi kn liat which channel, secondly, access to internet thirdly, chill~ xP

oohh...i forgot what i was gonna right..but it definitely has nothing to do with me being "in love" pfftt~ dont want to talk about it..

ahhh!!i totally forgot what i was gonna write..had to go eat halfway through this so my mind got distractedd...pffft!!