Possibly, the reason I agreed to rejecting to what 'they' call a 'life' is not getting myself involved in another one of those drama. Being out there, means being more susceptible to knowing more to what I know now. Not that I prefer to being an easily cheated dumbo cause I do think i've known enough from experience but, this does reduce the possibility of being more - as they call it- "easygoing" =).

However, thoughts play a major role in this so called "emotions" or "moods"or something thats in between these lines. These gifts of memories and thoughts are the devils that seem to haunt you most. Furthermore when both are interrelated. For how can one shake off thoughts and memories thats just engraved in our minds?

There's really no way of getting out of these so called "dramas" that one seem to often blame on individuals themselves, for whom can know what one is thinking, their way of thinking etc etc. Through this, one seems to butt in to others lives without being invited not knowing of the damage they've done. However, how far do they know that their thoughts differ from those around them?How the way of viewing things are not the same, for what one sees as good is actually bad for the other?For how can one follow on to their feelings, just to destroy that of others?

Funny, how human nature is, for we are really selfish in our ways. Through what we think is help may often be for the best FOR OURSELVES. Through isolating oneselves, one is actually stirring up worry to others. How at times, we are actually thinking for the best of others, when actually its our own needs that we're actually pleasing?As a way to get out of the complication. For the term solving a problem may never be a choice, for it actually is just a figure of speech, just to show that there is choice in life?For does it seem to offer any real solution?We seem to always be running from "problems", perhaps.

Am I wrong to have written this at times when the mind's all over the place, thinking of different stuff, but is boggled to thinking that I'm actually focusing on what I'm writing. To be honest, the smell of ridsect is killing me, as of the heat and of many other thoughts.

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I cant help but wonder why Brunei has to be dimly lit at night. I think that could be an answer to why most Bruneians have poor eyesights. lol!


The only bright area in Brunei might as well be Gadong, where most attentions go like almost all the time, roads and even the so called CBD's not that brightly lit. Not even on any celebrations this year as I could recall, Would probably be the reason why noone goes anywhere else except Gadong. Presumably, humans are like insects, attracted only to bright lights. lol! It could be no wonder then why Brunei dont really attract a large number of tourists. Have you been to the Brunei "International Airport" at night?The place is as dark as the compound of a house on the everyday basis. There is a big "spotlight" standing right in the middle of the parking lot and yet its still dark. -_-" perhaps this could be the impressions needed to be printed on tourists mind when they come out of the arrival hall?seems like there's nothing to offer..haish..Brunei, "a country of unexpected treasures" kept them hidden in treasure chests kaah??too stingy to pull them out for maintenance?-_-" haiyuu..

Brunei's not all bad though, a few kinks are seen to be worked on, roads are un-- a mess, blame on the land, but still could be preserve to use longer then a few days if trucks would stay out of the small roads, I doubt there's some constructing or students to be picked up by buses at that "kedai minum" where they park their trucks or buses close to, especially at night. Sheesh.. as "racist" most of us are, we still let them "foreigners" step on our heads no?

"bu, nya kawan ku amah babu temeng"
"pasal?"
"kawan ku dtg dimalam ahh nya ia cmani *angkat dagu* "cari siapa?""
"biartia wahh, inda ya tau kali tu"

haishh..

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