This morning I forced myself back to sleep with thoughts of how would things be, if I woke up, back in one of my kiddy days, like seriously kiddy days. But with knowledge that I have now. So I drifted off, thinking of how I couldve lead a different life, went to different schools, never met the people I met, going through a different experience, perhaps.. therell still be a little bit of innocence lingering around. I think - Im not pretty sure cause it was the same situation where i drifted off - lastnight or perhaps this morning, I thought about the innocence. I mean, to not like know stuff, not just in thoughts..*shudders*

So yeah, I kinda woke up ealy today, I seriously dont know why, I couldnt get back to sleep so I had to like force myself too. But yeah, I woke up not short after and thus this published post. Its four days till BKK. Im so not sure of how I feel about it..-__-" sigh. I dont know why, but it sure does feel like a long way from spending time tons of time with bebeh, I mean like, ill go off, then he will, then i have exam, he's back to school, he prolly has hols and i start school, then final exam, which I really have to work on, I need to get that scholarship!I need the spending money!I mean more, spending money!So yeah, Ill have to work on it, considering the fact that I lack one more O to actually get the requirements for it..bleurgh!So I hope maybe I could be like recommended?Perhaps..if that could be done.So yeah..Like is life seriously rushing things?Or have I evolved to a somesort of work obsessed person?O_o

Lastnight someone asked what happened to me in the past couple of days, I seriously didnt have an answer..-_-" maan!how did I waste my days like that?-_-" and then or perhaps before that,the person asked if Id rather lose my past memories, or would I rather not be able to make a new one?Well, I went with second one. Cause ifyou think of it, even if you were able tomake new memories, you probably wont be able to keep them, cause youll eventually lose the memory, which just leaves you with nothing. Mmmhmm~ I am 'sentimental' that way. I mean like, if you dont have anything else to live for, memories could just sometimes be enough. But what would you have if you had to lose them all?Well I wont say that for me, but yeah..it makes sense probably to some. I dont reallyknow what else to blabber about. Im hungry I shallvamoose!

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