Its weird that things has come to be elusive nowadays. Like how most would prefer one night stands, and some even using it as a basis for a relationship. How they would use guilt for pleasure etc etc.

And its a wonder, if things change for the better or really for the worse, or they never change, just with or without the absence of something that was or wasnt there..am I making sense?!

Well for the last few minutes of my time in the "loo" Ive actually came up with a couple more of the sentences I have now. And it fit into perfect sense.

I've never really came to a thought, I may have been inspired, but the absense of pen and paper or just simply a laptop prevents me from blogging them. In which turns out to be a loss for me, for having to have thought of something and still lose them. *sigh

- a need to blog.

Labels: Random, something from the soul

T.T

There's a rule stating 3000 pixels on the longer side..-.- perhaps for the quality. My fault, my fault. So shut up and forget it.

Carelessness

May cause something something (my mind's not quite here right now so ignore the babbling)
In which may result to disappointment?-.- *pouts*

Hunger's quite overwhelming, affecting the thinking process..-.- mind's wandering off to a distant place, stomach's calling me back - back to earth.

Tududu~ deh aku rindu kau.. *kelip yang lemah*

Labels: keemosian

No pens, no papers. Just boredom and a little bit more to it.

Have you ever passed some unknown house, and like imagined what it would be like if it was yours. If that house was the one you come home to every day, instead of the house you live in now?

Perhaps its the urge to peep into somebodys' elses house or an abandoned house that made me come up with the idea. This was not done deliberately though, and for how long I've had this habit, I dont know. Perhaps from when I was a kid, or just years back, or even just months, but what I know is that I just realise this recently.

Pass a house, look inside it, and all kinds of thought would come out. Not particularly living there (duh~) its like, by just doing that I'm inspired to think of other things (particularly related to the house), and that is why at times I may seem distracted when I'm in the car.

Seemingly, being in the car is like a ride in inspirations. LOL!CORNYY!!But, so is the toilet -.- which does seem kinda odd.

Back to my inspired "house" thingy, so basically I get all sort of ideas, all sort of thoughts, just being in one car ride. Well at times though, my mind does seem to shut off from all the thinking, and sticking to the "lului-ing" part and the "singing" part xP

And as si Kayun says it I never get to my point in my blogs -.- which I cant disagree on. Such as this, I'm lost in another world of thoughts..perhaps this is where my GP grades went too..-.-

deh sayang kau.*angkat2 kirai*

Labels: not getting to my point, something from the soul

Woohoo~ finally a topic my mind can wander around.
Its still gonna be a crappy post, its not very inspirational, thus should be blogged into the other blog, but still, its not very personal and thus it lands here.

*sings along to Beyonce's irreplacable*

"You must not know about meYou must not know about meI could have another you in a minuteMatter fact he'll be be here in a minute - babyYou must not know about meYou must not know about meI can have another you by tomorrowDon't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable So go ahead and get goneAnd call up on that chick and see if she is home ..."

If its someone like that,that I want, boleh jumpa ampai2 dimana saja. Step up your game at least, didnt expect your standards to be so low.

If you're thinking of someone more than that, you should go to a boy goes by the nama samaran aka manja; si samut..xP *rawrr*
although he may think he's chinese, and although in his I.C may state that he is chinese, he actually is malay *angguk2 dengan muka serious*
tapikan, even if you go to him, ia merakat sudah arah "gula-gula" tu, so it may be hard to pick him out of it. *wuishh konpiden*
Okay this post is lame, and i thought i vowed myself to post only inspirational thoughts in here, crap banar aku ani..!!

anyways, "izinkan" made me smile and blush tadi pagi, and chami stinks like crap.

IM HUGGABLE!!
*angkat2 kirai*
si Teeqah ckap *points to teeqs*

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hnh~
Maybe not directly, but I used to defend you when people badmouth you, but I couldnt care less now, not that I'm agreeing with them, but I just smile and nod. When I "defended" you, even I, half-believed myself. It's "faith".

You're thinking you're such a big time "player" in the game, but from what experience has taught me, you're just an "all time beginner". Its like, youre unintentionally dragging me to come back to the field. (hahah!OMG this is lame)

Okay so after the weird almost everything reminding me of him type of day, nahhh BLOG KU ARI ANI!!
lama pulang sudah ni, kawan ku bagi arah ku..*cough* exchanged~ this was dy's note yang he exchanged with my 7$

Tadaaaa!!!I was bored, in the computer lab, supposedly surfing some Nelson Mandela stuff last Monday and this is what i drew..lawa inda?LAWA???!!lol!!xP

Labels: everyday ku., Random, snapshots.

apparently Brunei's upgrading its airport, its not properly upgraded yet, theyre still working on the toilet at the moment..well..today~ so there's really no toilet to use..-_-"
This is what they have now at the airport, classy~~ lol. The second picture my sister took.

Pictures~ pictures!!I WANT PICTURES!!I WANT!!I didnt "catch" any nice ones lately and I couldnt upload the ones I have..they're no satisfying jua..sighh..buleh jadi depressed macam ani, ani..!!Why am I back to my fascination with photography?lalalala~ was gonna upload the picture i took today tapii!!error!!kaling..x'( so just imagine ada gmbr sini

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LOL!!antamm daaanngg~~

inspired paragraph; House.
and I miss you.

and with every faint beat.

Not very much inspired. Didnt feel it'd fit in the other one either and yet it doesnt fit in this. Though it is inspired, there's nothing to say?There is but no words?yes.


the closest to a "567"

Okay so there's really no shots of the birthday girl..-_- just the kid and the husband..ohh well..but we still had dinner on her treat at the seafood place near HSBC jerudong.and i still know who my kayun is..xPP

For a split second I thought things would finally be resolved.
But with all the words, the mind wanders off on its own. For it was a supposed collabaration with the soul.

Things just shouldnt be so complicated but I know its tiring you and I felt like I was burdening you. I wanted to do things the way you do it, but it came out wrong. And here's the space that used to be there, the thoughts came by Monday I guessed. I come to be in your life the wrong way, like almost smothering you with my existence. But as you said "no strings attached", and why should I be in that position?

I never really said it or admit it, but 'they' saw it, they knew it. I just couldnt resist the idea of the possibility of ever losing you.

• You never really wanted to 'talk', but you seem to look bothered.
• You said you tell me all your problems, I really doubt that, especially the ones thats related to me.
• Everything's deleted because of you. Thats a bad sentence but literally yes.

The tree's still there, bare, you just dont see it. I just wanted you to breathe, without having me smother you.

"potong bebe angsa,
masak di kuali,
Nyonya minta gangsa,
gangsa empat kali
Sorong kekanan,
sorong kekiri
Lalalalalalalalalalalala~"

Lol at least that was the way I remembered it. xP
Sister was singing it but I wasnt really listening. But apparently the song got stuck in my head. And i've been lala-ing to the song after that.

As far as I can remember that was a song taught in primary school, remembered doing a concert on it too. It was fun back in primary school, that yearly concert especially!and i could dance then..now I totally suck, lol!xP

I dont really have anything to blog about. My day went on just as it is, I slept like at 3++ till 730. But i counted the hours and it didnt seem that long..xP just a straight 4hours. hehehe..so no particular update at the moment.

Labels: Random

of everything..
literally!

Okay it may be due to the unproductive day. Or the depressing thought of exams. Or some random thoughts that just came popping up now and then.

Everything seems to bother me..-_-"
and I am very tired!Tired of this and that and this and that. -_-"
SIGHHH~
And can I just GAHH??-_-"

I need the sky~

Labels: keemosian

Happy Birthday Amalina.

There are no new piccies today~ nothing interesting to take, or perhaps just couldnt see it. Is very tired, saw another rainbow but didnt take a picture.

I was depressed for abit tadi cause I thought Ms. Gay was coming back to teach us, and apparently my homeworkS inda siap..=D. Most of the afternoon was spent with dy~ i needed a hug actually cause i was depressed atu, i forgot all about it though and we went library instead. He had to do some typing for our sociology yang sir minta. Had him walk me over to class, he left his laptop in the library with a couple of "laughing" guys, wreckless banar anak atu. Had him hang around my class jua, sekali Ms Gay nada show up and we went back to the library, he continued his typing and we watched 'eurotrip' in the library.lol!
Okay so it was a slow and tiring day..-_-"
People came to think we're together OR were once together nowadays..Only if you are Mirul, or that dude who sits near the notice board sebalah dy's and Mirul <3ss table (LOL!) and has PS on block 4; "i'm yours" lol!
On that topic, dy's worried about things he shouldnt be worried about, im not getting a boyfriend anytime soon. flings (y). So we'd still be as close as we are now (probably the reason why people kept on thinking we're together). --,

Habis sudah kata-kata ku and..and..*tunjuk semua orang* aku lawa..bwahahha random~

Labels: celebration; birthdays, everyday ku., keemosian, Random

Mervyn Yeong,
Exactly a year ago, I would have to honestly say I didnt know it was your birthday. *kelip* I think I asked you, and you said something you dont want people to know because you dont want it celebrated??or were you just playing around?
Hmmmm..how we became buddies~..ingat ko??I do~ malas ku elaborate, mun ku tanya balik gerenti ko pakai yang ani.
=]
kata-kata hilang tiba2.
sorry.
Aku sayang kau.

Labels: celebration; birthdays

This was yesterday, malas ku merotate, lame much..hahha!ake's shades.
This..I randomly saw, was busy chewing on my ayam, then looked up, saw this through the window and i was luck "wow!just my luck" was malas to ambil keluar, but then took dri dalam inda nampak. so went out anywayss..

Labels: Random, snapshots.

So I was walking up the steps of the house..the little two-steps..lol!and this was the first thing I saw..Lying still..i thought it was dead, but then my dad kicked it, and it moved..I guess it was just tired or something..

Labels: Random, snapshots.

Okay so maybe me and the buddy are abit jobless..

Labels: Random, snapshots.

inspired by the last few lines of my previous blog; Azim.

To love only him.
In return was a bitter surprise.

They say, people can never be changed by others only by themselves, on their own will. But my thoughts differ. Maybe these type of qoutes cant be followed on to blindly. For nothing is really definite in a human's behaviour..right? This is from what I've learnt in sociology and even a part in GP. Well for what I am trying to say is that, people can in fact change by others presence, not to a whole extent maybe but bit by bit. At times we even change without taking notice to it. For instance, being just being by the side of someone would make you smile, perhaps not literally but emotionally. Or perhaps, to try to hold on to someone, you make promises you're just not sure you can keep.

Well I'm not really siding to the fact that others make you change, cause truly, people only change on their own will. Well call me a hypocrite but it is true no? For the real behaviours that truly affects another is the one we mould ourselves, the ones that we are "born" with. The innate ones. Being lazy, is one behaviour that could not be easily 'socialised' into another. To change that person, would not entirely be through motivation etc, BUT on the will of their own. So what if, we are surrounded by people who loves to work 24/7, their way of entertainment/satisfaction, is to stress themselves with work while we are the 'weird' ones who thinks, a day on the beach, or naps or the t.v is entertainment/satisfaction. Surely when someone starts to label these things as an immoral behaviour (perhaps I overused my vocabulary with 'immoral' but get my point!) we'd perhaps have a sense that we should defend ourselves. We wont simply change to becoming one of them, or even wont change at all. Not exactly to the conclusion that I was talking about, but this is a very vague idea. That sometimes being provoked makes us even more to our negative attitudes (which is still not my point here, but the thought just came out).

So you see, as post-modernists might argue, over time, society changes and through those changes there appears more choices.
I'm still out of my point here, I know. But my mind's partially distracted with the thought that its 1120am now, CSI's coming soon and I should really change the channel. So if this thought comes back, the continuation might be blogged. But as of the record of my old blogs, no continuation has ever been written..xP

Labels: something from the soul

I've been dying to update my blog, but there's nothing to blog on.
No pictures, no inspirational stuff..
Pfftt~ tapi aku mau type something..:S

\m/ hahahaha apakan!!

Labels: Random

Its a new type of Wrigley's
lol!actually spent quite awhile thinking of a caption for this picture. Its a hammock..

Labels: snapshots.

Dy saw this, thought it was a trick so he could "phewitt" sekali pusing it was beautiful.

Ohh..my sister's birthday~ CAKE!
her and her husband!HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYAN!!



And them equals this little boy..(too lazy to rotate it, so tilt your heads people)

Labels: celebration; birthdays, snapshots., something from the soul

Aku inda mau-mau jua kan ada gambar ani!!..*angkat2 kirai*

Badan nya lawa tadi..*drools*

Labels: snapshots.

Labels: Random, something from the soul