This isn't my year. But God know's best. Patience. Tawakkal. Alhamdulillah.

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Who am I lying to?I'm just still in love with you.

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First exam is 2 days.
Tryna focus;

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"As the uneasy feeling went on, the gaps of the door, became material, of what seemed to be a scarf. The fire flickering struggling to beat the wind, switching between colours and shape. The fire eventually found its way and smoke began to rise.

The day darkens as the minutes go by. Ashes falling and thoughts began to escape, running around the room. It was like unleashing the demons. As the smoke sinks in the insides, the uneasy feeling lifted for a little bit. One of the demons was the uneasy feeling. It ran the fastest. It was one of the most intolerable. It was one of the lost ones. No known reason for its behaviour.

Perhaps it wasnt just the smoke, perhaps it was also something else, that demon slowed down. It became weak. It no longer took form of a demon, it changed, it became a weary lost soul."


I took what was supposed to be a half an hour nap, but I guess the non-existence of energy drinks turned it to a few hours nap.
For some reason, I just wanted to go on with my sleep. But the thought of a messed up sleeping pattern gave me the urge to eventually lift the blankets of my body. And of course, the thought of my future plans. I wish to not mess that up.
I felt heat prickling at the back of my body, but the aircond was on 16degrees. I felt like ive lost my motivation to go through with my plans. I thought of the idea I had for today, and it didnt feel like I want to go on with it. I am behind on my scheduele.

And for some reason, I ended up in the kitchen, looking for food. I failed. I called the parents, but they were out somewhere, and they didnt want to get me food. So I ended up vacuuming my room. It doesnt look any different, just no more lizard shit. I hate lizards. Theyre icky and they leave a mess. But my room has a weird tendency to breed huge ass, icky lizards. I dont understand.

For some reason, at the back of my head, I think the nagging this morning, made me lose my motivation to study. I hate 'advises' it makes me seem like I dont have a brain. I am not saying I wont listen, or I wont ask. If i'm not asking for it, I already know, Ive thought of it, I have a plan. Its like.. riding a bike on a hilly slope, and the 'advice' is like the one that pushes you back down.

Im tired of blogging. It doesnt really help. -_- Ive wasted time, and Im getting sleepy again. And my train of thoughts no longer falls down to my fingers anymore. Cause it has subtly taken up my brain in every minute of every hour. And it has become very comfortable there.
I really want to study, but every part of me is shutting down.

sigh. I need food. Im hungry.



"While you're ignoring her, another guy is giving her attention & while you're giving her problems, another guy is listening."
I saw this on twitter.

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Planning an all-nighter. So this is uni life. Workload..and little time for play. its alright.. I need to do this..=)

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OMG..this is my 567th post..=)) *paluk diri sendiri* gila atu sad..

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My exam's tomorrow..


And never had been the floor to any place I study, dont look like that. Huahuahua..my table's too small for me to study mmkay??best alternative. Wish me luck!i am now eating dinner, left over garlic rice from this morning, and home-made kentucky chicken..(kentucky flour covered chicken) ;p

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Syukur alhamdulillah..:)

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My last few posts dont have titles, its a little bit bothering.

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Soo, today, I woke up feeling kusut..After minutes of tossing and turning. Pam.Pam.Pam.

"perhaps I should check facebook, for updates on result"

Nothing.
First stir, facebook statuses.
Second stir, facebook statuses II.
Third and confirmed, facebook statuses III.

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So the study group did turn out this way..-_-" I like this picture most cause i look cute..:P So okay, im gonna go sleep now. Nanights!

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omg!look at how long i havent blogged!!I SO CANT BELIEVE THIS!*pengsan* because i feel lazy to do work, i thought id bloghop. but the trend of blogging seem to have died out..so... there's really no blog to go to. So i thought I shoud update. So lets see what i have to blog about..hmmm..

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Got my results today..Wasnt awesome..my dream fooled me. I suspected it would!I thank god, Ive been through it before, so I didnt have high hopes!WUUWWW!SO SCREW YOU DREAM!well not all the dreams.. Just, that one particular one I had this morning.. I loved my other dreams.. ♥♥


I dunno whats up in the afternoon but uhh..feels like im up to something..-____-" I have nothing to blog about at the moment, except for my unsatisfying result..If only I had another B..I WOULDVE TOLD YOU GUYS TO SCREW YOURSELF!!WOOOOOOO!hahaha..*cough* I kid, I kid, im not that mean.. I wouldve just bragged crazy, hello fb status!I WOULDVE UPDATED YOU LIKE SHIT CRAZY!BUT ALAS!Ive only alot of Cs - compared to the As and Bs DUH!So imma just, you know..keep it down low..Though updating it on blog doesnt seem so. BUT HEY!Its my first ever result from school!Im actually just psyched about it..About my first ever result!*wth? hahah!so yeah..it may not be clear to you all, what im exactly am psyched about..so yeah..imma shut up now..!Bug yaar minds soon!xD

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gosh!Sometimes I wish I had like a normal relationship. -_-"
I miss the dude.
Technology is supposedly to connect people from long distances, like they were right by each other, and sooo?I wont get to that.

So I had a pretty banging start today, my door was banged, not knocked..BANGED!hahaha okay i exaggerate, but it sure felt like a bang, cmon!i was asleep it sure did feel like it was banged on. Its two days a day, till Monday, I want to like Monday be my last day eh..to go school and then like!WEEEHEEE HOLS!AND YAY!OFF TO WEHHEEE!!Id love to wish that my everything could be left behind~ but yeah exams in Jan soooo..cannot do..=(

The phone is not in good condition..have I blogged about it?It got thrown and stepped on, pretty hardcore ah??\m/ hahaha..


bleurgh!i have no time for this, soooo I should bug off and do work, get it done by tomorrow.

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BoysIIMen - End of the Road.
"*inda as in ada something missing
*eseh
*apakan
*mcm inda complete bah
*eseh
*mcm ada sesuatu tinggal di masa yang telah berlalu
*eiseh

*hahahaha semua org will rasa cematu yoh"

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The above doesnt make sense.. But just felt like posting it. HAHAHA!

So anyways, im no longer psyched for BKK, well Im still psyched but like if I dig deep in my mind, it just means I have to study in BKK again..pfft. Like that worked the last time..*roll eyes*

So yeah, I did my accounting, esok aku siapkan..hahaha perasan..but yaknow i just gotta before i take off, like I dont know why but it feels like im rushing everything before I take off..wth man?im coming back jua..duh!So yeah must dos before I take off might be meetings with few important people..*cough* and..well thats just about it..hahaha!soo i dont know what to blog about.

oh yeah!this i wanted to blog about yesterday, but somehow..something mustve happened that hindered my intentions. Atu waa.. I dont know why, but nowadays I find it annoying when I talk then people just cut me off..like, im just pausing for awhile like 3seconds and like people just rush in to talk?so okay, it may be longer than that, but yeah still. Its not I intended to be annoyed by it..-_-" but like cmon!its not like i talk often, just hear me out for abit..hish!hahaha..so okay, im not really bugged about it at the moment, cause there's really noone who's talking to me, and cutting me off right now. So i dont really know how bugged i am right now about it. so imma take off now..cause im bored..and i feel like sleeping..so tudda!

hahaha I dont know why, but there's something more than this..hahaha..:P

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Which btw must be highlighted the fact that I havent seen him!Last I met him was, GIJoe..=( that was, hmm, the day right before the fasting month..sucks! Okay and I seriously cant remember what I was gonna type..-___-"

I want to change my blogskin btw, but Im tired of looking for them, I want to like create my own, but, I feel very malas jua. So Ill just stick with this one, for abit, till I finally have the hmm, kerajinan too do so.

Hmmm, I think, Ill be done for the night..toodless!xP

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My laptop sucks!There I say it!IT SUCKS!!!Its working, working alright, just cant open some softwares, cant open MSN, cant open Norton, cant open MICROSOFT WORD!!MMHMMM!MICROSOFT WORD bah inda mau buka ah.. so probably be going back to Wisman since its still under 3months warranty, unless theyre gonna give me shithead excuse that its not their fault..-_-" i think imma start throwing stones!pfft..

Less than a week to go before puasa!Weehee!and weekend!yay!-___-" and results would probably be out then, kan bertapa ku digua eh..-____-".

I woke up this morning from a bad dream -___-" aku sedih ah, hahahha apakan.. And I miss Mabin..mhmmm.. I guess the conversation we had lastnight just something something something.. I went to Nis's blog tadi, and I think I have the same exact pants..hahahha!apakan..-_-" Im hungry, I havent had breakfast, Im just waiting for lunch. No, no, Im not a diet, I dont really care about my weight by this point.. I just wanna eat, eat, EAT!-___-" okay, I think what we talked about lastnight, is starting to sink in to my mind sayang..-___-" HAHA!apakan..-_-" I just had a weird not so funny thought..Okay I think Im just being delirious, cause Im hungry, okay, I go. I go.. Useless ni sudah my ramblings ah, and its pushing my oh proud post on poklens cause macam orang pandai wah aku sana ah...AHAHAHHA!

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What was meant to be a treat for Syahmi turned out to be..

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he left..
I cant believe it, I feel so empty.. So, lost.
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Eiseh..eiseh..macam apa..he's coming back in 10days, i cant wait for that day..=))

I have exams in two days, im gonna cramp my head with geography starting from tonight, its just for another two days.. ive made plans, with a few different people that dont know each other on the same day, just realising it..-_-" so I had to 'rearrange' my 'scheduele'. Yay, I cant wait for the 10days to past, at the same time not wanting it..-_-" makes my exam closer..grr..

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you already Mabin.Sasak ku kau ah, kelaparan semua kan kau makan..grrr..
I miss you sayang.. I really do.. You shouldnt have gone..-____-" im grrr-ing you..b simpan tah saja ke'geram'-an b terhadap beh. And oh yes!kitani inda begambar tadi...!!!!grrr..come home soon baby..=))

I want to sign off now, i should start my thinga ma thing thing.

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I am bored.

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I had geo paper tadi..sucked, out of time, not such good writing, frustation, i such big big big BIG sad person.-___-" bebeh's leaving in a few days..he sucks, said he'd prefer me over KL, and look he's leaving in a few days for it tiaa..YOU SUCK MABIN!!YOU SUCCKK!!T.T

(8) i need you tipsyyy enough (8) hahaha..song so chiiill manigaaz..yes, i am bored. I've stated that on my opening of this entry. I want driver's license. no, no..i just want car, its okay if i dont get the CX-7 cause I know its very expensive at the moment..A Honda Accord is just alright..or a Mazda 6..hahaha..nya si zaem inda alang2 ku milih krita ani..awehhh!aku tunggu BMW jua ni..!hahaha..

Okay, this is a useless update, but...aku mau show off hidup ku wa jua macam kamu2 jealouss ku..(y) haha..and i hate atuu..twisted words..doesnt seem very of high intellectal to me, just..you know..rubbish..hahaha..yeah, i know.. hypocrite jua si fatin ani eh..what do you care?ada kau sayang aku?ada kau jaga aku?ada kau ampir aku masa ku paling beguna kau?eseh apakan..btw i meant it for the moment lee..
asteehh, sad usul post ku ani..-_-" im not really, im just being annoying, and very, critical..-_-" im bored wa, and thats for the third time ive mentioned.

Bah eh, kan mengamah ku ikut orang berjalan, dont hate..i cool..ahhaha..-_-"

Advice: Do not slap writer, this is not a permenant phase, it comes once in awhile.

LOL.

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