A moment of weakness.
I have noone to talk to at the moment. So this is nonsense ranting!You wont get it, unless you get it..-__-"

And it starts to unravel. I heard this song, and it dragged me back. "he ran to my house" - a qoute.
What 'wouldve' beens are running in my mind now ever since I got the news. I was surprised.
But Congratulations!xD

Labels: everyday ku., keemosian, something from the soul

An incomplete piece, thats longed to put be together.
Even if its particularly acceptable to not have put the piece there.

The ones, that meant to be in the centre but had eventually found a spot, better at the edge.
To have them put up as on a 'wanted' poster, is what drags everything down.

What if the piece, was not meant for that puzzle?

I dont know exactly what Im saying, but it just bothers me, so much!

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I had a thought in the shower the other day, of experience, and it occured to me, experience has not all the advantages we all agree to point out to. As of all facts in this world, what has a good side, has its bad.
Experience, matures us of our thoughts. Makes us more aware, more dignified. But doesnt that also mean, that it has robbed us out of our care-free years?Our 'childhood' years. Where we can do as we please, without thinking of a consequence, or to just not simply be traumatised by an experience?Or just simply 'live-life'. Most of us really, take experience as a guiding notebook in our everyday encounters and at its least would probably make us stop and think about it. Perhaps this is just me Im talking about, but what are the unlikeliness of you!not have experienced this?

Supposedly, maturity is the best quality in an adult individual, but what kind of memories can we look back at for having to experienced through the growth of this 'maturity?Surely, the more 'mature' you are, the more experience you have encountered, and with more experience surely be of that had which started long ago. Thus, the more shortened, childhood time, in which has to be every individuals most fondest memories of the past. Well, supposedly!

Labels: keemosian, Random, something from the soul

Im supposed to be spending time in the gym, this morning. Yes, I've put on an 'exercise' attire. Yes, I did get down to the gym. But no, I didnt even get to opening the door to the gym, cause this Mr. Gerrard was on the threadmill. I wanted to use the threadmill, not the cycling thing. Well yeah, maybe I do. But maybe alot later, after I'm done on the threadmill. So I went back upstairs, 'catered' to Andy, and eventually ended up lying on the floor, once again saddened by the situation. Its my first day on my period btw, so I am overly sensitive. -_-"

Ohh and yeah my laptop's dead, which made my day yesterday alot less 'good' than it was supposed to be. I've cut my hair again. Boyishly short, Mabin-ish wiggy look, only better. Im running out of money, and I dont know if I want to stay here, or go back. I cant run!I cant run!

I am feeling indifferent at the moment though, I think I'm having one of those menstrual stomach cramps, and I dont know if its bothering me or not. I think Im gonna finally go fill my stomach with 'tarur'.

Labels: everyday ku., keemosian

I think I have a bad day.

And it just occured to me, when the taxi broke down in the middle of the busy road. hurrrah!I just had to laugh on my own. Like suurrr-yees-li..*giggles*

Bah im tired.toodles!

Labels: announcement., everyday ku., Random

I'm having a crazy headache.x( I think im gonna get sick soon. pfft~ *roll eyes* malas tah ku ingau~ Imma be up and about!weehee!

I finally tried Reese's brownies tadi, nyaaaman~ and I have alot more chocolates..x)

I'm staring at the self moving cursor now. Macam seriously, jalan sendiri ahh. -_-" nyasal ku kacau the mouse, it stopped moving now.

And I planned to go to the gym tadi, and just jump to the pool, but as I said, I have a crazy headache. Yatah tidur ku saja, tapi aku bangun masih jua ku sakit kepala.-_-" Bah ehh, reminding myself I had the brownie, is making me hungry.x)

Labels: everyday ku., Random

aku sad. aku sad. aku sad. aku sad. AKU SAD!


-_-" saja, melayan rasa..hehehhe..
aku rasa mataku allergic kan ridsect or shieldtox, pasal kana spray, sekali macam gatal tia. apakan.

Bah aku kan tidur, I have a big day tomorrow.."BIG" day..haha..apakan..aku ngalih wa saja awal ni..sheesh..


i really-really-really-really miss you. do you know?sigh

Labels: 567, keemosian, Random

The only gambar yang ada in this laptop, and I couldnt edit cause this laptop nada adobe. I miss my laptop.sigh!

Labels: 567, celebration; birthdays, everyday ku., snapshots.

The just turned one year old;



Suka hatinyaaa ni..!!Happy Birthday si be-abih..!

Labels: celebration; birthdays, everyday ku., snapshots.

I ate telur penyu tadi..*nods*

criminal tah ku ni?*gasps* =x

and i miss you bin~

mana kau kan?!

Labels: announcement., everyday ku.

With excitement there it felt like a ray of hope just came shining through the windows of my soul. It was just to bright for some so they drew the curtains and the windows just shut closed and Im pushed back to my gloom.

For years, I've envisioned this big break, this chance. I just dont understand, why I have to just give it away, without even dwell for abit in its shadow, to know that I was at least a little closer to it, just for something that might take me even further away from it, though it is somehow in its path - so close yet so far. I think this is tearing me apart, it really is..=((


At this very moment; Last Comic standing sucks!its annoying!They're not funny, they're americans?!

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I dont believe a chance like this will come again, so I'm torn, very torn to let it go. I still dont know what awaits me, and its terrifying to look at another downfall. That's why I dont want to let go a chance as priceless as this. I've stated it in my book to not mess chances, but this is beyond my will. sigh..

Labels: everyday ku., keemosian, something from the soul

I think I've finally figured out why I'm excited about next week, though truth be told, I dont think it'll quite be as 'exciting' as I pictured it to be. Well, I didnt picture, I'm just excited about it. AHH!Anxious is the word!Sama i'm gonna be missing out on a few stuff jua. Eish!

I dont really have anything to update on, even my excitement ani malas ku blog. so peace out~ A-town teenett, teeneet, teenett, teeneett *lagu usher - yeah*

Labels: announcement., Random

*sniff*

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its heavy on my shoulders.
There's no million things going on in my mind - well none thats clear to think off anyways, but it feels like there is.

INDA KU TAU WAAA!!!IINDAAAA KU TAUUU!!sigh~

defeated rasa ku, but I'm not, aku tau pasal aku inda dapat give up, even when I want to. I may look like I have, I may look 'carefree' but I think!I STILL THINK!!damn thoughts! I cant stop, stop thinking. Its annoying, its a syndrome, uncontrollable.

aku mau jadi Maria Sharapova -_-"

I have a book that works as an offline blog - cause there are times the laptop just seems so far from reach, Naz saw it, ia pikir diary~ ITS NOT A DIARY!well sadang~ I dont do diaries, hidden thoughts should stay hidden. Karang mun orang baca bising jua kamu.. So yeah, that just 'illustrates' a tiny part of how my thoughts just dont stop.

Labels: keemosian

I dont know why, but I logged into an existing friendster account - that I know off, and I didnt HACK!
So as I was browsing through the bulletin topics, I thought "masih people on this thing kah?"
And at the start of writing this down, si Fwadd tegur, and I shared with him this thought.lol apakan!

bah aku malas sudah..whatev~

I feel stupid eh..-_-" cause I didnt get even just 1 C for my grades.

Yatah kan, aku inda mau blog sebenarnya, but i'm hella bored!
I dont know why but I cant wait for next week.. Macam nada jua aku tau ada plan apa, tapi I cant wait for next week's Monday and days after.

I applied for another kerja, and if I get it, I'm screwed, pasal aku 'rasa' macam kan ikut ke Thai..xD I want to cut my hair lagi sedikit, but I dont feel like going, cause binbin nada sana tu..DUHHHH!

Ohh, I went to that thing, beh pajal me to go, I was happy to be with him. apakan~ xP
Tapi kalau aku ikut Thai siuk jua tu..*daydreams* its just 10..aku bangun awal tadi, 730ish?aku malas tarus bangun so I wiggled around in bed.. well not wiggled, just stayed in bed, under the blanket and moved around for abit..i dont know what to do up that early wa, yatah aku malas bangun tu. Oooh..I shouldve jogged..xP

Bah malas ku do this useless blog updating..-_-" rasa jua wa kan memblog ah, yang nada-nada pun diceritakan..xP

Labels: everyday ku., Random

I just got off someone's blog - I was bored, so I blog hop - anyways, I cant help but smile and thought of "what?" and came to a conclusion to blog. I know, I shouldnt have been "snooping" around, if my thoughts differ. But C'MON!!Just as that is your blog, this is mine..hehehehe!

We all have different levels of confidence, but its sometime amusing that some show it, through weird things, its like, they're really bragging?And they dont realise it?Okay, wrong choices of words but I dont really have the words for my err..amazement?I admit, I brag, and I sometimes dont realise it, but its different and not linked to confidence?I'm not perfect, neither are you, but we have thoughts, and that's what differentiate us. Okay that's just out of topic. So yeah, pokoknya, it was just weird laa..VERY WEIRD!well not really weird, but I wouldve blushed if I wrote that. Well I would, but only to people I know, and intentionally as a joke?*garu kepala*

Bah I'm going nowhere. Useless sudah cakap ku..xD

Bahagian corny usah dibaca jika tidak ingin mengetahui.
i miss you bebeh..hehehe..xP you took away the light of my day, thats why its gloomy out.xP

like i knowww raighhtt..xP

I'VE GOT IT!!I'VE GOT IT!!*lumpat2 iski* its pakinn awesome *drools* and its my new baby!!I WUV YOU PHILLY~ well that's its current name, i'll think of something nicer meanwhile..x)) yay!!i can finally jog!since si bebeh~ kan menghak milik aku punya yang lama~ *rolls eyes* I need it back soon btw bebeh, abang kid kan pinjam sekejap, will pinjamkan you balik after atu..EEEEE..*squeals excitedly* nahh..meet my new baby..XDDDD

(will upload gambar soon, my camera is sucking at the moment!)

Labels: 567, celebration, everyday ku.