Intertwined in a spiral of love. Too much of both ends. What took it all apart, what made sense was how the day ended.
It had always been a spiral of motions.. It had always been a hell of roller coaster ride. But it was evident you, you couldnt be not part of of the motion. Without you, itll just be another broken ride.
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WOW!I JUST SAW AN UBER HUGE CUPCAKE!I WANT IT BITCH!WANT IT!*cough* -_-" that just distracted my thoughts, and now all I can think about is that cupcake..*drools*
Its Saturday today..thought of going out, but I dont know who to bug about it. And the boyfriend has still not confirmed a shit..Sooooo.. I dont know..-_-" guess ill just be home. shucks!I have nothing much to blog about.. Im having my holidays now, and it hasnt really been productive..-_-" no serious update or no shit.. Its really bumming out, so Ive just been bumming out lately...nough said. HEY LOOK!ITS !!1123!and look i receive something from facebook!AND...err..nothing..i forgot..sooo..I think, since i have done nothing, and what I thought of doing will just be hanging in air..I shall bug off, since there's really nothing to blog about..soo yeahhhhh!!Go get screwed now!ohh yeahh~ *does that thing with the cross hands and shit* AHHAHAHAH!
If you are so frequently in love If you prefer it all to me then my love You go down the longest road to nowhere You pull it apart and you're just left there.
Its already the 27th.. I heard salary's out.. Dad havent given me cash though. Been complaining, boyfriend been complaining about me complaining and still going out...teehee..!xp
So yeah, I finally went out, like with friends lah.. It was fun!teehee..It was like a surprise 'thang' for Nurul and Zul.. I dont have pictures.. Tunggu Sasya upload..or Mizah..teehee..xP will update once they put up..
The image I had few days back might be true after all..-_-" gaad..im soooooo..whatever..
malas ku actually..
I dont know why, for some reason Im helll exhausted?I havent had awesome sleep..But yeah Im trying..and its good enough I guess. It doesnt kill me if I have un-awesome sleep. I wish to get back to I dont care about my facebook phase..cause..its just one hell of a rollercoaster ride.. I think I just need it for..hmm what do you call this?err..tagged pictures..But then there's not alot..so yeah..manasaja tahh.. I hate the idea of deactivating it cause Ill be back on it in time. I havent had new pictures.. I have been dull for the past couple of years.. OMG! Nah whatever!I should be rajin with camera nowadays.. But awesome pictures rarely come from own shots..-_-" RARELY!And I dont have photoshop on laptop.. bleurgh..Im sleepy.. I shall sleep.
The 'F'-ster says: *or the fish shit thing zhaf PLEASE SAVE THE HAITIANS before they turn to zombies . says: *? *many fish in the sea? The 'F'-ster says: *yeahhh zhaf PLEASE SAVE THE HAITIANS before they turn to zombies . says: *yeah that never works The 'F'-ster says: *like so what if there are other fish in the sea? zhaf PLEASE SAVE THE HAITIANS before they turn to zombies . says: *yeah man *you want that specific fish The 'F'-ster says: *love is for that particular fish *HAHAHHA *omg! zhaf PLEASE SAVE THE HAITIANS before they turn to zombies . says: *we're talking about fish..
"a man who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is.
a woman who truly loves you will be angry at you for so many things but will stick around."
-Tammy.
January 25, 2010
I have tons of reason to change my bloglink and its layout and links and stuff, but I am the kind, that treasures every little thing. Ones that dont really mean value to the "modern people". I am not to despise anyone, but I am back to a point in my life where I dont want to be. I dislike the situation in a very big amount, and well, all I cant think about is how to get out of it. But itll have to mean loads of loss. And Ill have to restart life from scrap.
*big sigh
============================ So its Monday, I have no classes cause its holidays?And Im really hungry, Im starting to hate the internet cause it connects people. It has indirectly given you information that you dont even want to know, even when youre not snooping around for it. Its just bluntly right infront of your eyes. In a monitor. Isnt that depressing?-______________-" FAK!
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January 25, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
If it means nothing,
what am I doing
trying to interpret it?
I guess thats just life fascination, throwing lemons for basically no good reason. Well rotten lemons, ones you cant made lemonade of. But itll somehow scar. Lemons ironically scar you. Thats odd for something that can actually give you a jar of sweet sweet lemonade. If its rotten it really should be like icky and soft and gooey and nasty, but its - I guess is - hard and solid and pointy for how can it scar?Well perhaps not as deep as a scar but yeah there's something you can remember it by. I higly doubt people forgetting lemons. So Im guessing now, its not really lemons. Cause its really not making sense according to mine that is. So whats hard,yellow and could scar you?A flying brown cat?Perhaps.. A flying cat would be scared as hell being thrown in air like that, they basically have their claws out when they're scared.
I have an image in my head that I wanted to use, but apparently they dont have it on the first page of google..so this is the best I could find. So yeah.. I shall be off to sleep now.. Im really sleepy.. Ill be seeing boyfriend tomorrow. Hope things go well..
"setiap pembukaan hari, ada pembukanya. apa tam buat? senyum, kerna senyum adalah pembuka segalanya dan ia akan mebawa hingga kemalam hari. insya Allah." - Tammy.
aku terrified kan tau something that may or may not be serious. Inda ku mau tau eh..*dust shoulders*
Tapi its at the very top of my head, and I really cant shake it of!shit..shit..shit!Banar aku macam see a flash of how it may be..and aku inda dapat like picture how the rest of my life goes, if that particular flash comes true..Macam shit!Can I get out of the circle without being entirely selfish?Malas ku malas!Im just perhaps gonna talk about this today, so yeah jangan ditanya ah lagi.. THANK YOU!
So yeah aku macam really REAALLY whats the word for gelisah and susah hati ani shit in english?cause that is what i feel..macam OMG O_O aku will permenantly be awkward and uncomfortable and crying my nights and hell inda mau socialise at all and shit!Miserable lah kali life ku tu jadi nyaa..
So aku and si Naz is talking about circles kan(not literally ah tampar kau karang *over jua eh*) and how to get out..so like aku ani kan draw a diagram but she couldnt receive kan, because she hasnt usai-ed her msn..*tantang* so yeah..
this is like our objective lah ah..question is how..!how how how!omg!macam lama sudah aku inda buat long posts cani..so yeah anyways..if there is a way..please, consider posting comments or such..PLEASE!MAY GOD HELP US ALL!
It felt forever since I last blogged. Today is the last second day of my exam..TOMORROW IS THE FINAL ONE!Weeheee!Tadi was economics.. I seriously dont know how it went..-___-" well I hope I do well..so yeah, its holidays after that! OMG!My nose is stuffed..I cant breathe..=( okay this post is getting lame..-_-" i sh0uld stop blogging so yeahh!ESUK KU LAST!
I love you when you try. Im in love with you when you do stuff I ask for. But I guess you dont like me that way. & I guess you dont like my smile.
I dont find humor in people's flaws. Not the ones they couldnt change. But all you see is blame-searching-looking-down-on-people type of person. I dont know where the years of you knowing me went. But I somehow have the thought that you really werent paying attention then.
======================================= I had good news..but that was yesterday. Today I feel pressured. I dont have support. Well I do..but just not yours.
It could mean 10 different things. Or it could simply trigger a memory. But main thing is, I havent heard it for so loong. <3
Teeheehee..aku cari it on youtube, tapi ndada..so malas tia aku. Im home now. Like Brunei home. Like...it doesnt feel different, I dont feel jetlagged. BOOOO! When I got to the airport, I went upstairs to send Gymah off. And I met the girls..<3 So yesterday, I immediately had class, we have exams. On 18th!onwards..=/ and yesterday I waved to someone I cant recall in my memory. and yesterday I went hua ho. and then a function. and then I studied till late night/early dawn.
Arent Im steady?Im hell steady!hahaha..
I shall go, because I am hungry. Thanks for spending time reading this..hehehehehehhehe..<3
I miss the boyfriend. Im supposed to study. But Im hell hungry. Will you feed me?
Im coming back tomorrow..I cannot wait..wuuu loser!
"Mcm poklen x wah tani ani tin.. Mau balik brunei! Hahaha.."
Haha.dorks wah..apakan.-_-" so yeah, Ive stayed in today, I havent gone out. I want to but I have no card. The "kami kan balik tunggu taxi ni" has not balik. I bet they went out to eat. Aku lapar..-_-" sedih eh. I have money lagi..I could though, but aku malas ask the person to bukakan..bleurgh..bah I shall go. I shall sleep. or whatever. Oh yes!I have new gadget!Which I totally had not let go off, or have it out of my sight since I got it yesterday.
Wuuuw!biartia!..aku inlove ni!hahahha!\m/ i look so creepy though..-_-"
January 06, 2010
Monday, January 04, 2010
I have not blogged for 2010 Therefore, I am blogging.
I was listening to like songs from the past year.. macam Im missing something. Eyaa!in which means, aku teclick something tapi aku inda tau apa..HAHAHA! Aku malas blog wa..no, no..I rephrase, aku malas blog NOW wah. Aku waste time saja waiting for my lovelies (the phone hahahahahha!) to finish. No, no..aku saja kan call the phone my lovelies, cause I just felt like using the word.