I feel my heart breaking..I know, its like soooo sudden..-.-

I guess my life's moving on way fast forward at the moment, like the things I missed, this is my life redeeming it. (And btw, I got stood up..haha..-____-") anyways, yeah, its like Im in constant fatigue, and still I have this will power in me to keep on going.. I dont know in what way is that depressing, I dont do alot thats how I feel, but I just feel so fatigued. Excluding the daily mild headaches Ive been errr..having lately. My weight depressingly stayed and err, reduced?The rush of going to somewhere is what's causing it..-______-" Its like I have issues..-___-" pfft..no I dont, well I dont think I do..





okay that was sudden, Im being sudden nowadays, dont suck, its awesome..hahaha apakan..Its Wa'ie's first birthday tomorrow btw..-___-" he's turning one!hahaha i know ive mentioned it, but I have nothing else to sayy..-_-" I am so desperate to blog something out..-__-"

hish!sasak ku semua orang kan jadi busy people ani.. hehehehee..okay I have nothing more to blog about..

Happy Birthday E-e!

Labels: celebration; birthdays, everyday ku., Random

We had a 'workshop' thing in school today, it was kinda awesome. It was a 'mind management' thing. And like it made me realise, I have been managing my mind well..=)) yeahuh!well except for the procrastinating part.

There was this balloon thing, and some ugly dancing, I miss having people I know, like REALLY KNOW around..-__-" atu it seemed awkward for me to anticipate ah.. Nasib the girl beside me, Jennifer, a Vietnamese (my school is SOOOOO international, like the people.. hehehe awu sakai ku) had like a beat, so kinda followed her for abit. Did the rope thing with her too. So anyways, yeah, it was alright..

My head hurts, it always hurts..-___-" Maybe subconsciously I have alot to think about..-__-" maybe.. so as usual I cant really remember what I wanna talk about..=___- bah im done..tuurraa..!

Labels: career, everyday ku., Random

Ive always had.

Labels: 567, something from the soul

"I sat staring at the phone for awhile, going through all the things I could
say to you. But words they're just words, youll never really know what its like.

It seem to be that, that "forever" isnt on our side, from the looks of it,
not now. I thought we'll make it through but it just seem to get worse by the
day and I dont know what we'll eventually hold on too. "

It just seem to me, that youre a sweet dream I woke up crying to.

Labels: 567, something from the soul

" it breaks heart to only see you in a photograph. "

Labels: 567

Labels: Random, snapshots.

i just cant seem to get, that im not your number 1.

Labels: 567

Its the last day of raya today?Im kinda sure it is..thats what I heard.

So yeah, Im hungry, parut ku growl like shit, and aku masih taisliur. Aku period, I found out in the toilet of school, hahaha apakan, as if its first time EVER. Okay this is weird to post in a blog, but I wont delete cause I want my blog macam banyak usulnya. Hahaha..I wanna go holiday btw..=( I know I just started school and all, Im not complaining, BUT!Aku mau saja waa..=(( even just for the weekend *kalip2* Okay useless post ani..-_-"
Inda ku tau sudah apakan di post..-_-"

aright, aright..tadaaaa..
oh and I miss si my "bumblebee" tehehehehe..*roll eyes*

Labels: celebration, everyday ku., Random

So hello!I feel like I havent blogged for quite a long time, though, thats not really true I guess?its been a pretty hectic week, minus part I had to squeeze all my heart out for you sayang =(( mean ass. And plus!I got schooollll mannn!schoooooooolllll (nah ani, I put in cause si "Nabeelah" suggested cakap pasal school) its pretty alright so far, I havent really fit in alot, but its alright..=) its the education that matters..weseh!There's abit to say about it, there's a couple of people I know, who's intending to 'catch up' but being the quite person that I am..hehhee..im sooryy, I want to, but aku malu..=P people have to stir conversation baru aku can talk..ehehehe..

So hmm, other than that is si boyfriend, aku rindu ia, ia inda rindu aku, pasal ia si busyman kan..hidup nya terlalu busy, aku ganya ada masa di fikirannya..eseh emo!hahahha..no shit, but I miss you, which reminds me I need abit of cash..cause I have lunch out now!for 3days in a week..pfft..inda ku kata2 eh...school is interesting..hahaha..

So yeah, I have nothing more to blog about..or ada but its not at the top of my head!ohh yeah!I had mcd kan~ sekali..I met this old friend of mine!hahah sekadar..-_-" but really!I havent seen her for a long time now!!hahaha..but sekadar still, nada jua apa..so yeah..

and having a facebook account again is soooo weird.

Labels: 567, career, Random, snapshots.

Can you help me find my calculator please?:D

Labels: announcement.

Yesterday.. I told myself 'tomorrow'll be a new day'. Turns out, I wasnt really far off from the truth. =)

I used to dream of a steep slopes..it took alot more than the first time to finally get up. I finally understood what it meant after June came out..=)

& I didnt dream it once.

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I saw my star covered up in dust.
I heard the way my heart broke.
I tasted the taste of failure.
I felt the numbness while falling down a dark pit.

The way we see the world is different, the way we judge people, the way we feel. You see the world differently as you grow up, like youve constantly migrate about. But the sky is still the sky, the land is still the land, the sea is still the sea, the wind still blows, and the rain, is still the rain, nothing really changes.

When what you once thought was a tall figure of majestical authority, fell down right infront of your noses, what would you have thought?
What if what you thought youve posessed, were not really yours?
When you just lost.

Your beliefs changes, leaving you back to square one.
Clueless, pointless, restless. In a land, a bureaucracy.

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Staring at someone you thought you knew,
you wonder what plays on their mind as they stare into space.
you watch their every move, analyse them, put meaning into them.
you put on a smile, play along, and you thought you saw their heart breaks for abit.
maybe youre right maybe youre wrong.

Why hasnt it occured to you?
Why have you not added things up and see whats bluntly laid out?
Why cant things just be accepted the way they are.
Is it just because we're human?And we have to conform?in one way..or the other.

Labels: something from the soul

Were did it went wrong?aaahhh..its pointless. Forget it!

I've just given up.

Labels: not getting to my point, something from the soul

why dont I have girly girl songs on my blog?HAHA!I just realise..-_-"

I have something to blog about eh awhile ago?But it just, you know, hilang..=( so anyways, err..there's no anyways cause I forgot what to blog about...-__-" it mustve really been the ants..-_-" the ones crawling on my body, and it accidentally got into my mouth and I swallowed it and I forgot..-_-"

Ahhh!Tomorrow~ I'll hope I'll be up early~ and FINALLY be able to renovate my room. If I cant then its just delays and will eventually become like hmm, a waste of money..-__-" So okay, Im sleepy now, imma take a nap now. Maybe I'll update again later.

So I was talking with this person lastnight, and thanks to this person's, hmmm..basic questions, I just realise that I am at my most best place I have ever been, since awhile. =) Thank you. No I have not yet, accomplished where Im sure I am meant to be, but, I am so close..

It'll definitely tear me up to pieces if I was to miss it, but for now, being this close is hmmm..making me happy. =)

Im glad, the way you've phrased your words, it struck to me, of how much I am in the watchful eyes of people.. You neednt need to know a whole lot, but thank you. Youve made me realise..=) and thats enough to put a smile on my face.

So I had time reevaluating everything lastnight, nothing has changed much. Just the basic fact I know, laid out in the open.


So Im watching Mamma Mia now, I love the songs, but they wont be download, I dont need them in my posession..=)
Hahaha..its lame, yang I feel like crying meliat cerita ani..HAHAHA!

So I dont really have anything to blog about..=]

Labels: Random, something from the soul

I'm sleepy...-____-" macam my eyes have been this -___- way since dari tadi.. but Im like forcing myself to stay up, cause I dont wanna wake up in the middle of the night screaming your name, with sweats running down my hair, and an aggravating uneasy feeling of how much I need you by my side. HAHAHA!No laaa, its not that hmmm..something thats that creepy.




So yeah, Im having a very very, VERY lazy sunday.
OKAY MY PHONE JUST LIT UP!WITH NO REASON AT ALL!Its so creepy~ anyways, yeah, went out just for breakfast, and uhh, getting this book. That I've only read, till page 22.Wow!I mean macam, nevermind. Banyak introduction thingy wah this book, it just kills your joy of enthusiasm to discover, tales beyond its pages.

So yeah, last two days, UBD had the second intake for 09 brief thingy whatever (Im too lazy to edit my sentence prior to sleepy eyes!) and my dad like knew about it from the newspapers yesterday. So yeah, he had us calling for UBD and all that, and again!the brief advise of "just wait" was given~ So okay, Ill just be abit patient about it, cause no matter what, I'm already hyped up for school!mmmhhmmm~ as dorky as it sounds, I am excited to get back to classes and shiz. Cause you know, even if I dont get into UBD, Id still be going somewhere, well hopefully, since we havent really asked. So yeah..heart's rehearsing for its orchestra..=) if you read my previous post, somewhere, you'll get it. And I kinda think thats kinda literally, cause lastnight I went to sleep with songs in my mind, and I woke up pun with songs in my mind!

Ooooh!And I was rajin tadi!I vacuum-ed car mats!MY CAR!hahahaha..its so weird to admit it..And yes its my car cause my dad got it fer me..wooooo!hahaha, well thats what he said. Or Im just a scape goat in this tale!grrr~ so yeah anyways, I got lazier, towards the middle of my task, and so...the work stopped halfway, but the mat was clean..well kinda..You know grass, is so hard to pull of fabric, especially wooly ones. and there was chewing gum on one of the mats!I am so cursing people who spit out chewing gums on curbs.. Its like dont they have a mind of their own?Hahaha..I know, its so out of the line, cause entah..well I just felt like saying it. pfft.. and so, I have nothing more to hmmm..say?So i'll just be hmmm, as I said to si Ameer, err..dude apa tu aku cakap?-_-" lupa ku..something stare into sites?or something of that sort.

Labels: everyday ku., not getting to my point, Random

Happy Birthday Nazihah Ibrahim!
I dont have your picture in my newly formatted laptop, Im not on facebook to curi your gambar jua. Maybe later ah?Liat lah kerajinan mengupdate. Hehehehe..

So anyways!Happy 20th!6tahun lagi kawin tia you ni!*menangis* macam omg!membesar me sama you..*labih* hahaha!Ahhhhmmm.. Inda me ingat apa me kan cakap ah something pasal kan hint-hint belanja?*kelip*

OMG!sorry, sorry, I went out in the middle of this..-_-" grrr..
Sorry ah inda proper post..=(

Happy Birthday Naz!!

Labels: celebration; birthdays

I went to pizzahut for breakfast. It was alright. I slept when I got back, it was alright. I went out again, it was alright. Drove home, it was awesome. No, thats not in a dorky way, its a soul thing, you wouldnt get it unless you get it. No shit. Hahaha..bah I'm done.

Labels: everyday ku., keemosian, not getting to my point, snapshots.